In the end, I'm only human just like anyone else. I have my highs, and I experience the lows. While I wear a strong face and a smile, please realize I get scared too and have my own doubts. I just choose not to let my doubts and fears define me. I fight, I don't give up, because as long as I live I believe I should strive for greatness. If you aren't fighting for happiness, than what are we living for. I'll save giving up for the day I die.
I have thick skin, a sarcastic mouth, and the ability to talk myself out of almost anything if I choose. So its hard to get to me, whether it be good or bad, I can always sense with something is really serious or real. Like these past couple of weeks at work, I knew it was bad, and I did fight, but truthfully I think I was ready to move on, albeit this was sooner then I had hoped, but nevertheless I was ready to go. My only regret is I left some innocent people high and dry, but understand that wasn't my choice.
I say all this, because I hit a major low right now, and I was blown away at the people there for me, I have a hard time asking for help, but I found out I have real friends and people who really care, and I can't even begin to state how much that means to me. I'm used to being the giver, and often times I don't expect anything back, so for my friends to care this much means the world, it truly does. One friend, I expected it from, but nevertheless they are a gift from God, because I know they're busy and have their own issues, yet they care enough for me to still be there, I'm beyond thankful. Then the other friend, the friend I thought was lost from me, didn't have have to reach out to me, but they did, and reminded me they care for me, and that just really hit me deep inside, I literally wanted to jump out and hug them to death, no joke. And then another friend whom I haven't seen in months, keeps checking on me, making sure I don't get depressed, and than even my roommate pitched in, reminded me we're in this together. I mean I'm almost speechless.
I cherish my friends, always have, I'm one of those weirdos that considers friendships on the same level as lovers, and I've always been willing to everything I have for my friends, and now, when I need them, they're there, not just there, but they're there far beyond I expected, and I'm blessed for them. I thank God for them. And believe me I will never forget them or their kindness, and one day i promise when I rise back up I will repay them ten fold. I love you guys and girls so much, and yes I need you all, I need the support, I need the company, thank you, thank you so much. I pray God blesses you all a million times over, and I promise you all I'm there for you for life.
I have thick skin, a sarcastic mouth, and the ability to talk myself out of almost anything if I choose. So its hard to get to me, whether it be good or bad, I can always sense with something is really serious or real. Like these past couple of weeks at work, I knew it was bad, and I did fight, but truthfully I think I was ready to move on, albeit this was sooner then I had hoped, but nevertheless I was ready to go. My only regret is I left some innocent people high and dry, but understand that wasn't my choice.
I say all this, because I hit a major low right now, and I was blown away at the people there for me, I have a hard time asking for help, but I found out I have real friends and people who really care, and I can't even begin to state how much that means to me. I'm used to being the giver, and often times I don't expect anything back, so for my friends to care this much means the world, it truly does. One friend, I expected it from, but nevertheless they are a gift from God, because I know they're busy and have their own issues, yet they care enough for me to still be there, I'm beyond thankful. Then the other friend, the friend I thought was lost from me, didn't have have to reach out to me, but they did, and reminded me they care for me, and that just really hit me deep inside, I literally wanted to jump out and hug them to death, no joke. And then another friend whom I haven't seen in months, keeps checking on me, making sure I don't get depressed, and than even my roommate pitched in, reminded me we're in this together. I mean I'm almost speechless.
I cherish my friends, always have, I'm one of those weirdos that considers friendships on the same level as lovers, and I've always been willing to everything I have for my friends, and now, when I need them, they're there, not just there, but they're there far beyond I expected, and I'm blessed for them. I thank God for them. And believe me I will never forget them or their kindness, and one day i promise when I rise back up I will repay them ten fold. I love you guys and girls so much, and yes I need you all, I need the support, I need the company, thank you, thank you so much. I pray God blesses you all a million times over, and I promise you all I'm there for you for life.
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