Life is always interesting if nothing else, we all are constantly faced with decisions and all our decisions ultimately have consequences that shape our futures. Nothing is perfect, this world isn't perfect, yet there are those who always do their best to love us and be there for us, and that is beautiful. Look, I never claimed to be perfect, I've never expected you to be perfect, I never claimed our love would be perfect, but I can say that I will always love you and be there for you no matter how imperfect we might be.
I can't judge you, I mean, how could I, when I myself am flawed. I leave the judging to God and God alone. All I can do is make my own personal choices based on what I feel and experience in my own life. But in the end, they are choices I make, facts can skewed by whoever is viewing them from different perspectives, there is no single truth in life as we all are affected in a unique way by every choice anyone makes around us.
I can't tell you how you feel, and you can't tell me how I feel, because simply we can't feel each other's emotions. We can't see into each other's mind or heart. There are times I want to walk away from you completely, not because I'm hurt or mad, but I want to see if you'll miss me enough to notice I'm gone, and if you care enough about me to come get me back. I don't fear much in life, but I fear losing you, it's why I can't walk away. You are a piece of me, a vital piece, if I lose you I lose that part of my heart and that too me is crippling.
Can I survive without you? Yes. Can I succeed without you? Yes. Will I ever be truly happy without you? No. I believe honesty, even when it makes me look weak. I tell people I love them everyday I see them because I know we won't always have that chance to be in each other's life, I know time is precious. Some people can't grasp why I value people I love so much, and it's simple, when the time comes and I can't see them again, I want to be able to say they knew I loved them and I did everything I could to make them part of my life and remind them how great they are.
Too many times when people pass on I hear, I wish I would have said more, I wish I would have made more time, well I for one don't want to wait until someone I love leaves before I realize how precious they are. Some see me as clingy, some see me as soft or emotional, some see me as annoying, but few realize what I really am which is loyal, honest, loving, kind and not ashamed of who I love.
I'm at a unique position in life, the one I love is the one and only one I want to be with, she is my life in every way. I love her so much. But there is someone currently interested in me, and honestly I know nothing about them, yet I feel I want to explore them and see if there is something there, but the only reason I want to explore them is I can't be with the one I love right now until the decide to be with me.
Everyone has their issues, everyone wants to be loved, including me. I love her, all I want is her to love me too, and give us a chance. I hate being alone, I pretend to be fine, I pretend I'm not depressed, but the truth is being alone kills me. I need her, I love her, and I miss her, and it kills me inside. I willingly submit myself to her, to the one I love, but only to her, and I openly admit that. Sometimes, I just want friendly company, I don't want to sit alone, doesn't matter what we do as long as we do it together.
I can't judge you, I mean, how could I, when I myself am flawed. I leave the judging to God and God alone. All I can do is make my own personal choices based on what I feel and experience in my own life. But in the end, they are choices I make, facts can skewed by whoever is viewing them from different perspectives, there is no single truth in life as we all are affected in a unique way by every choice anyone makes around us.
I can't tell you how you feel, and you can't tell me how I feel, because simply we can't feel each other's emotions. We can't see into each other's mind or heart. There are times I want to walk away from you completely, not because I'm hurt or mad, but I want to see if you'll miss me enough to notice I'm gone, and if you care enough about me to come get me back. I don't fear much in life, but I fear losing you, it's why I can't walk away. You are a piece of me, a vital piece, if I lose you I lose that part of my heart and that too me is crippling.
Can I survive without you? Yes. Can I succeed without you? Yes. Will I ever be truly happy without you? No. I believe honesty, even when it makes me look weak. I tell people I love them everyday I see them because I know we won't always have that chance to be in each other's life, I know time is precious. Some people can't grasp why I value people I love so much, and it's simple, when the time comes and I can't see them again, I want to be able to say they knew I loved them and I did everything I could to make them part of my life and remind them how great they are.
Too many times when people pass on I hear, I wish I would have said more, I wish I would have made more time, well I for one don't want to wait until someone I love leaves before I realize how precious they are. Some see me as clingy, some see me as soft or emotional, some see me as annoying, but few realize what I really am which is loyal, honest, loving, kind and not ashamed of who I love.
I'm at a unique position in life, the one I love is the one and only one I want to be with, she is my life in every way. I love her so much. But there is someone currently interested in me, and honestly I know nothing about them, yet I feel I want to explore them and see if there is something there, but the only reason I want to explore them is I can't be with the one I love right now until the decide to be with me.
Everyone has their issues, everyone wants to be loved, including me. I love her, all I want is her to love me too, and give us a chance. I hate being alone, I pretend to be fine, I pretend I'm not depressed, but the truth is being alone kills me. I need her, I love her, and I miss her, and it kills me inside. I willingly submit myself to her, to the one I love, but only to her, and I openly admit that. Sometimes, I just want friendly company, I don't want to sit alone, doesn't matter what we do as long as we do it together.
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