Sometimes I think people read what I write and think I'm up to something that I'm not. Truth is, I write what I feel at that immediate moment, it doesn't mean I'm trying to do something or cause something. Sometimes, it's just innocent words or a point of view.
For example, the woman I love, every time I write about it I feel like she thinks I trying something, when in reality I'm really not. I just want to be honest, I don't want her thinking I stopped loving her when I always will. I feel it would be wrong of me to not be upfront with her about it. She doesn't have to be afraid of anything because I love her, because I won't force myself on her, I just don't think that's the right thing to do. No, I'm more interested in being friends right now, and I wish she would realize that and let go of any other ideas in her head saying otherwise. She isn't available right now, believe me I know and I accepted that, but things change and we never know when or why or how. But just because she isn't available, and I love her, doesn't mean we can't be adults and be great friends. And I want her to always remember that.
I'm more than ok with letting everything in place in both our lives play out, I always have been, things take place for a reason, and we have to trust in the process that God has in place. It's why I refuse to say "never" on anything, because you just don't know what God will have happen at any given moment. What seems perfect right now, might go awry tomorrow, or vice versa. Follow your heart, if your heart says talk to someone, then do it, if your heart says spend time with someone, then do it, just realize your position in life at that time, and know where to draw a line. God puts feelings in our hearts for a reason, and it might be for the reason we think, just trust in His reason for placing those feelings there. So when I say I love you, you don't have to get nervous and run, it means you matter to me a lot, and I just want you there as friend and let time dictate where things go. I'm in no rush, having you in my life in any way is more important to me than making something happen.
Right now, I confess I need her as a friend, I need the comfort, the support, and her smile. She doesn't realize how much any thing she does right now means to me, I hate asking for help, I'm just like that, I'm very independent. But even I at times like this realize I need her and all my friends, it's just hard for me to ask. I don't want her to think I'm chasing her anymore, because I'm not, I haven't for months, but I do love her, and if things happen they happen, but until then I'm more than happy being friends.
For example, the woman I love, every time I write about it I feel like she thinks I trying something, when in reality I'm really not. I just want to be honest, I don't want her thinking I stopped loving her when I always will. I feel it would be wrong of me to not be upfront with her about it. She doesn't have to be afraid of anything because I love her, because I won't force myself on her, I just don't think that's the right thing to do. No, I'm more interested in being friends right now, and I wish she would realize that and let go of any other ideas in her head saying otherwise. She isn't available right now, believe me I know and I accepted that, but things change and we never know when or why or how. But just because she isn't available, and I love her, doesn't mean we can't be adults and be great friends. And I want her to always remember that.
I'm more than ok with letting everything in place in both our lives play out, I always have been, things take place for a reason, and we have to trust in the process that God has in place. It's why I refuse to say "never" on anything, because you just don't know what God will have happen at any given moment. What seems perfect right now, might go awry tomorrow, or vice versa. Follow your heart, if your heart says talk to someone, then do it, if your heart says spend time with someone, then do it, just realize your position in life at that time, and know where to draw a line. God puts feelings in our hearts for a reason, and it might be for the reason we think, just trust in His reason for placing those feelings there. So when I say I love you, you don't have to get nervous and run, it means you matter to me a lot, and I just want you there as friend and let time dictate where things go. I'm in no rush, having you in my life in any way is more important to me than making something happen.
Right now, I confess I need her as a friend, I need the comfort, the support, and her smile. She doesn't realize how much any thing she does right now means to me, I hate asking for help, I'm just like that, I'm very independent. But even I at times like this realize I need her and all my friends, it's just hard for me to ask. I don't want her to think I'm chasing her anymore, because I'm not, I haven't for months, but I do love her, and if things happen they happen, but until then I'm more than happy being friends.
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