Forgive me if loving you is wrong, forgive me if trying to help you succeed and grow is wrong, forgive me if being willing to lend a helping hand is wrong, forgive if being a friend to you no matter what was wrong, forgive me for giving you all I had simply because I sincerely care for you. Was I perfect? No, but I never said I was. Was I real with you? Always, you were the one I completely believed in. For whatever reason you also looked passed the good things I did for you, you always ignored them or chose to admit they were there, you seemed to always wait for me to mess up so you could use it against me as an excuse to walk away. No matter how much I stood up for myself, you always forgot the good and stuck to the single most recent bad between us. And quite honestly, you hurt me as a result for that very reason more than anyone or anything has ever hurt me before. Do you know how it is to being completely in love and loyal to someone, and then they wait for you're one mistake and never let you make up for it. When you love someone like that, that wound never really heals, it scars you, and you wear that scar forever, and it alters any future love in your life. It makes you look at love as a curse, it makes you question why loving someone is really a good thing in life, it makes you wonder if love is truly good or is it just plain evil.
You don't get it, you don't understand how much your careless words and lack of actions hurt someone who truly loves you. You sigh, and say why can't you move on, but that's what you don't understand. I don't have a crush on you, I don't love you for your looks, I love you completely for you, and I want you to grow and succeed, I want to help you grow and succeed, and you are everything to me whether you realize it or not, when you love someone like that, and feel like you never really had a chance to try, then I'm sorry, you can't ever really let go.
I wish I could call you trash, I wish I could bad mouth you, I wish I could forget your good and hold your bad against you, but I can't because that is not who I am, and I love you, and I choose to see the good in you. Are you perfect? No, but I never expected or wanted you to be. You pegged me for something that isn't who I am. You've always come first in my life, nobody else was ever more important to me, you just chose to believe otherwise on your own. And just because you believe it to be true doesn't mean it really is true.
I don't know how many other ways to tell you I love you, I don't know how else to show you I love you, you've tied my hands so many times, yet I always come through for you still, and I always manage to show I love you still. My loyalty to you has never faded or weakened, even you must admit that. My love for you has never died, even you must admit that. Maybe I'm blunt and outspoken, make I'm too honest and open, but believe me I never say anything with the intent to cause you harm or pain, I may say some things that I intend to be constructive that night be taken as insulting, but my intents are pure and true.
Maybe I'm strange, but I always believe when you love someone who has kids, you love the kids too or it won't work. Because to me, kids are just as much a part of her as her body, mind or soul. I believe you love anyone in her life who is close, I believe when you love someone you trust them, and you don't constrain them but rather encourage them to grow. You see me willing to wait for you as a bad thing, but think about it, that's how much I love you and believe in you that openly willing to make you the most important person in my life. To me you more important than money, sex, work, friends or anything else. I just wish you would stop doubting me, and stop trying to find what is wrong with us being together, and start seeing the positives and how true I've been to you even when you give me every reason not to be. I will always forgive you no matter what you've done in life, I will always love you, and my opinion of you will always be positive and loving. I just wish you'd realize how true my love really is, and what you are pushing away. You forgive so many others, you give so many others a chance in love, so more than once who treat you much worse, yet you choose to ignore my love and ignore any pain you may have caused me. As long as you are not a big part of my life, I will be missing a huge part of me and who I am, and just because you choose to think you weren't good to me or a big part of me, doesn't mean you're right, because you were a great friend to me and deep down I know you did love me, and deep down even you have to admit we were great together and happy. You always run from the people who truly care and try to be there for you, I don't if you think you don't deserve it or what, but you do deserve love, you are worth the truest and purest love around. You always were more than enough for me, you just never realized I really loved you for you, one day I hope you finally understand that.
You don't get it, you don't understand how much your careless words and lack of actions hurt someone who truly loves you. You sigh, and say why can't you move on, but that's what you don't understand. I don't have a crush on you, I don't love you for your looks, I love you completely for you, and I want you to grow and succeed, I want to help you grow and succeed, and you are everything to me whether you realize it or not, when you love someone like that, and feel like you never really had a chance to try, then I'm sorry, you can't ever really let go.
I wish I could call you trash, I wish I could bad mouth you, I wish I could forget your good and hold your bad against you, but I can't because that is not who I am, and I love you, and I choose to see the good in you. Are you perfect? No, but I never expected or wanted you to be. You pegged me for something that isn't who I am. You've always come first in my life, nobody else was ever more important to me, you just chose to believe otherwise on your own. And just because you believe it to be true doesn't mean it really is true.
I don't know how many other ways to tell you I love you, I don't know how else to show you I love you, you've tied my hands so many times, yet I always come through for you still, and I always manage to show I love you still. My loyalty to you has never faded or weakened, even you must admit that. My love for you has never died, even you must admit that. Maybe I'm blunt and outspoken, make I'm too honest and open, but believe me I never say anything with the intent to cause you harm or pain, I may say some things that I intend to be constructive that night be taken as insulting, but my intents are pure and true.
Maybe I'm strange, but I always believe when you love someone who has kids, you love the kids too or it won't work. Because to me, kids are just as much a part of her as her body, mind or soul. I believe you love anyone in her life who is close, I believe when you love someone you trust them, and you don't constrain them but rather encourage them to grow. You see me willing to wait for you as a bad thing, but think about it, that's how much I love you and believe in you that openly willing to make you the most important person in my life. To me you more important than money, sex, work, friends or anything else. I just wish you would stop doubting me, and stop trying to find what is wrong with us being together, and start seeing the positives and how true I've been to you even when you give me every reason not to be. I will always forgive you no matter what you've done in life, I will always love you, and my opinion of you will always be positive and loving. I just wish you'd realize how true my love really is, and what you are pushing away. You forgive so many others, you give so many others a chance in love, so more than once who treat you much worse, yet you choose to ignore my love and ignore any pain you may have caused me. As long as you are not a big part of my life, I will be missing a huge part of me and who I am, and just because you choose to think you weren't good to me or a big part of me, doesn't mean you're right, because you were a great friend to me and deep down I know you did love me, and deep down even you have to admit we were great together and happy. You always run from the people who truly care and try to be there for you, I don't if you think you don't deserve it or what, but you do deserve love, you are worth the truest and purest love around. You always were more than enough for me, you just never realized I really loved you for you, one day I hope you finally understand that.
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