Everybody has burdens, everyone has problems, everyone has stress, everyone gets depressed, that is reality. But different people handle things different ways, some tell the world, some mope, some stay quiet and implode, some try to outrun them, some ignore them and walk away, some get defeated, and few are able to hold there head up and laugh at them.
I rarely share my burdens with anyone, and believe it or not, while some close friends know of some problems in my life, I can honestly say none of my current know the real burdens I carry, the real reason I am who I am, and live how I live, and love how I love, and cherish everyone and everyday as if it would be gone tomorrow. It's why I always try to step back and realize everyone else has burdens just like me, and it's why I try to consider that when they treat me a certain way. The burdens I carry would blow some people's minds, they never would expect someone like me to have been through what I have and let alone survive. But I'm stronger than almost anyone else on the inside, I face my fears and emotions, and I learned long ago to not be ashamed of them. I keep everything hidden about me, until I feel I need to show it. Even when I completely trust someone, I had almost everything about me. I don't trust, I don't love easy, but when I do, I do completely and forever.
Anyone can talk the talk, but very few ever walk the walk, I don't just walk the walk, I also always deliver. Maybe it sometimes takes longer than I like, and maybe sometimes I need help from certain people, but I promise I'll always deliver or die trying when I love and trust you. I have a close relationship with the part of life called "Rock Bottom", and believe me you know it when you hit it, sometimes multiple times, but I've learned how to survive "Rock Bottom", and not just survive by rise from the ashes to succeed and enter the "Mountain Top" of life. I know how to manage the highs and the lows. Money, power, sex, or anything material is never the answer to happiness or success, no, those are all temporary fixes that lead to hard falls and lies, if you want to succeed it takes confidence, real friends, real love, self trust, self belief, and most importantly faith in God. I'm not saying you won't stumble, because the best of us will, but I promise you if you stand up and fight back, you'll always conquer "Rock Bottom".
There are things going on in my life right now that are destroying me, and nobody really knows. I don't know what each holds, and I'm basically holding my breath. But I promise I will keep my head high, and do my best, and no matter what happens face things like the man God made me to be. I rarely tell people when I need them, I hate being needy, but right now I'm struggling, and I need those I care about, if nothing just to be there. but whether they're there or not, I know I'll survive and find a way.
I'm the man who has a million problems and reasons to hate the world, but I'd rather make time for those I love and smile, and help them achieve there dreams. I know I can handle the pain, and if I help someone I love lessen their pain, then I know I'm doing what God needs me to do in life. Maybe I'm not the richest, or sexiest, or tallest, or darkest, or strongest, but I promise I'm real and true to the core, and I am me, and I will always be the best man I can be. You will always get my love and my best, and if I love you truly, I will always put you first, and I trust God to take care of me.
Just because I smile and laugh, doesn't mean I don't hurt, but just because I hurt, doesn't mean I won't help. I promise you, you think you know me, but you truly haven't a clue, only God and myself know who I am. Maybe one day, I can tell someone everything, I know there is one I love I want to tell, but right now she isn't ready, right now she hasn't loved me back like I love her, but who knows, the future isn't written yet.
I rarely share my burdens with anyone, and believe it or not, while some close friends know of some problems in my life, I can honestly say none of my current know the real burdens I carry, the real reason I am who I am, and live how I live, and love how I love, and cherish everyone and everyday as if it would be gone tomorrow. It's why I always try to step back and realize everyone else has burdens just like me, and it's why I try to consider that when they treat me a certain way. The burdens I carry would blow some people's minds, they never would expect someone like me to have been through what I have and let alone survive. But I'm stronger than almost anyone else on the inside, I face my fears and emotions, and I learned long ago to not be ashamed of them. I keep everything hidden about me, until I feel I need to show it. Even when I completely trust someone, I had almost everything about me. I don't trust, I don't love easy, but when I do, I do completely and forever.
Anyone can talk the talk, but very few ever walk the walk, I don't just walk the walk, I also always deliver. Maybe it sometimes takes longer than I like, and maybe sometimes I need help from certain people, but I promise I'll always deliver or die trying when I love and trust you. I have a close relationship with the part of life called "Rock Bottom", and believe me you know it when you hit it, sometimes multiple times, but I've learned how to survive "Rock Bottom", and not just survive by rise from the ashes to succeed and enter the "Mountain Top" of life. I know how to manage the highs and the lows. Money, power, sex, or anything material is never the answer to happiness or success, no, those are all temporary fixes that lead to hard falls and lies, if you want to succeed it takes confidence, real friends, real love, self trust, self belief, and most importantly faith in God. I'm not saying you won't stumble, because the best of us will, but I promise you if you stand up and fight back, you'll always conquer "Rock Bottom".
There are things going on in my life right now that are destroying me, and nobody really knows. I don't know what each holds, and I'm basically holding my breath. But I promise I will keep my head high, and do my best, and no matter what happens face things like the man God made me to be. I rarely tell people when I need them, I hate being needy, but right now I'm struggling, and I need those I care about, if nothing just to be there. but whether they're there or not, I know I'll survive and find a way.
I'm the man who has a million problems and reasons to hate the world, but I'd rather make time for those I love and smile, and help them achieve there dreams. I know I can handle the pain, and if I help someone I love lessen their pain, then I know I'm doing what God needs me to do in life. Maybe I'm not the richest, or sexiest, or tallest, or darkest, or strongest, but I promise I'm real and true to the core, and I am me, and I will always be the best man I can be. You will always get my love and my best, and if I love you truly, I will always put you first, and I trust God to take care of me.
Just because I smile and laugh, doesn't mean I don't hurt, but just because I hurt, doesn't mean I won't help. I promise you, you think you know me, but you truly haven't a clue, only God and myself know who I am. Maybe one day, I can tell someone everything, I know there is one I love I want to tell, but right now she isn't ready, right now she hasn't loved me back like I love her, but who knows, the future isn't written yet.
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