Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Too Much

You know, every has a breaking point in life... and sometimes people just don't see what havoc they're causing rather it be intentional or not.

Yes, I love you, I love you will all I got.  Sorry, if I'm not going to remind you how lucky you are that I love you, sorry, if I'm not going call you out if you hang with other people, sorry, if I'm not going to think you love herself because you spend time with other people, sorry, if I don't put you down to keep you down, sorry, if I don't hurt you in an effort to so you how great I am.  No, I'm not about any of that, you know why, because you love you.  And I do realize how great you are, and while I know I'm amazing, I know you are amazing as well, I don't see you as property or a possession, I see you as an equal, an equal who is more than capable of holding her own in life.  I could have tried to control you, but that isn't what I feel is love.  I love you for who you are around me and everyone else.  I don't believe in this reverse psycho bullshit.  I believe in trust and two people loving each other as God intended.  God never put his hands on those He loved, He never put down those He loved, He never accused those He loved in a false way.  No, God just simply loves us, and that is the example I choose to follow. 

If you want to let someone push you around, or hold you down by threatening to leave you in ruins, then you deserve it.  But I'm the man who loves you for you, and no matter what happens will work by your side together, rather than trash you and make you feel obligated to do anything.  When I offer my help, I do so knowing I will help no matter what, don't offer help if you don't intend to follow through.  So I'm done, I'm just done, you don't get it, and you never will.  You'd rather be pushed around rather it be emotionally, mentally or physically.  I've been telling you since day one, you are stronger than that, smarter than that, you are a special person, and should let nobody control you.  But until you get that, my love will mean nothing to you.

And if you do really love me, maybe you need to rethink some things you do.  As of right now, you lost me, and really I don't want to walk away, but as long as I stick around, you will always take me for granted, and even you have to admit that is the truth.  I would never try to control, never tell you who to be around, never tell you what to do, because I believe in you and your ability to be independent and know what's best for you.  I truly love you.  It's time you understand what that really means.  Things might be great now, but maybe think a little long term, after 10 years or so, are you still can put up with defending every little thing you do, but because believe me, things won't change over time.

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