Only constants in life is change and God. That's a truth that will always stand true. Changes, major changes, have rocked my world lately. And not the good kind, well not yet at least. The work life change doesn't hurt so bad, but what does is not being able to see certain people as much as I use to. Well, mainly my close friend. And while I know we'll still see each other whenever we can, it just sucks because well I know how busy things get and time just slips away.
That's something I don't handle so well. It's frustrating, because I know we both want to see each other, I know neither of us ever avoid each other on purpose, but time just hasn't always been there for whatever reason. One blessing I guess I can say, is we never doubt each other, we understand things come up, but it doesn't always make it easier I suppose.
In the end, I understand we'll always be friends whether we see each other or not, I get that, and I love that about my friend. But it's rough on me also, I'm the type of person who needs the interaction, I've always been that way, right or wrong. I want to share myself, and I want to enjoy life with friends while we can. I've always believed time is short for all of us and tomorrow isn't guaranteed, so I cherish our time we get to hang out. And I'm like that we anyone I care about. Am I wrong for that? I don't know honestly. I can only say how I feel about it. It's a fine line, I want to give space, but without work I have so much free time it's killing me, I miss people more, more thoughts run through my head, it just isn't good, and few understand that unless they've lived it.
I love friend, really all my friends, especially the one's there for me now, and believe me they're doing more than enough for me, and I'm thankful. So this isn't me saying anything bad about any of them, it's simply me letting out some demons running through me. Idle time is the devil's playground for a reason, I'm fighting, I truly am, but it isn't easy at all. I can't demand or even ask for someone's time, that would be disrespectful, no, someone's time should always be giving by their own choice, I will always believe that, plus when you allow it to be their choice, I promise that time will mean so much more. Just some rambles I suppose, one day at a time.
That's something I don't handle so well. It's frustrating, because I know we both want to see each other, I know neither of us ever avoid each other on purpose, but time just hasn't always been there for whatever reason. One blessing I guess I can say, is we never doubt each other, we understand things come up, but it doesn't always make it easier I suppose.
In the end, I understand we'll always be friends whether we see each other or not, I get that, and I love that about my friend. But it's rough on me also, I'm the type of person who needs the interaction, I've always been that way, right or wrong. I want to share myself, and I want to enjoy life with friends while we can. I've always believed time is short for all of us and tomorrow isn't guaranteed, so I cherish our time we get to hang out. And I'm like that we anyone I care about. Am I wrong for that? I don't know honestly. I can only say how I feel about it. It's a fine line, I want to give space, but without work I have so much free time it's killing me, I miss people more, more thoughts run through my head, it just isn't good, and few understand that unless they've lived it.
I love friend, really all my friends, especially the one's there for me now, and believe me they're doing more than enough for me, and I'm thankful. So this isn't me saying anything bad about any of them, it's simply me letting out some demons running through me. Idle time is the devil's playground for a reason, I'm fighting, I truly am, but it isn't easy at all. I can't demand or even ask for someone's time, that would be disrespectful, no, someone's time should always be giving by their own choice, I will always believe that, plus when you allow it to be their choice, I promise that time will mean so much more. Just some rambles I suppose, one day at a time.
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