I get confused and frustrated at times with some people. Right now, I have to be careful as I have all the free time in the world, and I have to remember everyone else doesn't right now, as they're busy. And that's difficult, a lot more difficult than people realize. I don't want to needy, but I don't want to be forgotten either, it's tough to walk that line.
The woman I love is a prime example, she'll reach out to me, to comfort me and suggest certain things on her own, and while I've learned to hold back my expectations on them happening, it does get to me, now maybe it's simply because I have too much time to think about it right now or I really miss her. But my point is with her, we don't have to do anything special, just be there and I'm happy, don't avoid me, because that just compounds things and makes them worse. I don't expect anyone to drop everything for me, I don't think that is realistic, I just ask someone to make time, maybe not a lot of time, but just enough to let me know I matter.
I get it, people get busy and forget, it happens. But when forgetting becomes habit, it's a little more than forgetting. I'm a believer if you forget someone that easily, than they aren't really important to you to begin with. I've always had an insane memory, and maybe that's why it's hard for me to realize how forgetful some can be. It's just she has her moments where she blows my mind in doing little things to remind me how truly she cares about me, and than she gets nervous and steps back without warning. I just want her to be confident with me, go all in, just be herself. I'm not one of those friends who only need her at certain times, no, I love her for her, and having her around at any time under any circumstances is a wonderful blessing.
She has the power to truly make me smile no matter what, and that's love, when someone can literally with their mere presence light up your whole world. And because I love her, I don't push her like that. All she has to do is believe in herself, and know she is perfect and I do care for her for herself and nothing else.
Follow through with her suggestions, give me reason to believe in what she says to me.
The woman I love is a prime example, she'll reach out to me, to comfort me and suggest certain things on her own, and while I've learned to hold back my expectations on them happening, it does get to me, now maybe it's simply because I have too much time to think about it right now or I really miss her. But my point is with her, we don't have to do anything special, just be there and I'm happy, don't avoid me, because that just compounds things and makes them worse. I don't expect anyone to drop everything for me, I don't think that is realistic, I just ask someone to make time, maybe not a lot of time, but just enough to let me know I matter.
I get it, people get busy and forget, it happens. But when forgetting becomes habit, it's a little more than forgetting. I'm a believer if you forget someone that easily, than they aren't really important to you to begin with. I've always had an insane memory, and maybe that's why it's hard for me to realize how forgetful some can be. It's just she has her moments where she blows my mind in doing little things to remind me how truly she cares about me, and than she gets nervous and steps back without warning. I just want her to be confident with me, go all in, just be herself. I'm not one of those friends who only need her at certain times, no, I love her for her, and having her around at any time under any circumstances is a wonderful blessing.
She has the power to truly make me smile no matter what, and that's love, when someone can literally with their mere presence light up your whole world. And because I love her, I don't push her like that. All she has to do is believe in herself, and know she is perfect and I do care for her for herself and nothing else.
Follow through with her suggestions, give me reason to believe in what she says to me.
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