As I've stated before my birth sign is Virgo, and as a Virgo we carry many traits, and one of those traits that is very strong in me is we remember everything and have uncanny memories. I remember things as if they happened yesterday, random conversations, random looks, random feelings, I remember them all. As a result, I often replay them constantly in my head, wondering if I missed any meanings or what I could have done differently. What is even crazier is I don't even have to try to remember these things, I just do so naturally, and it can be a blessing and a curse.
So what I'm going to share is a few random things I remember the woman I love stating, and I'm not sure if she'll ever remember saying it or not, or even if she'll admit it, but I promise you it happened. Out of respect for her though, I'm not going to say anything too revealing or bad. This is more for reflection and maybe fun than anything else.
I remember a couple years ago we went shopping together, I believe she was getting some things for a party she was attending. And I said something in jest, and I remember her saying the following line, "I've accepted the fact that I'll always be an amazon, and I'm ok with that." Now, at the moment I didn't say anything in return and I believe I laughed a little, but something I've always wanted to tell her is she is beautiful in every way. From her body, her face, her hair, her heart and soul. There is absolutely nothing wrong with her, seriously. I respect the fact she admits she isn't perfect, I admire that in fact, but she calls her appearance an amazon, I call her appearance absolutely perfectly sexy. And I mean that, her build is part of what draws me to her, I mean she is so much more than looks for sure, but I just truly want her to know never to be ashamed of her build or size, because there is nothing wrong with her. I can't stress enough how much I love this about her.
She once texted me while we were fighting, and I believe it was our first real fight albeit through text which drives me nuts, anyway, she stated "You're not the great love you think you are." This one blew my mind in so many ways. I've never claimed to be a great love in any way, I've never claimed to be the best looking, best built, richest, or anything of that nature. There were times she told me I was amazing and such, but I never said that, now I confess I never responded much when she said those things. But look all I've ever said is my love is very real and very loyal and very true. I will love her as best I can, and only her. I will give everything I have for her and her success. Does that make me great, I don't really think so, but it makes me honest and real, there is a difference.
She once texted the following, "I feel you can say things to someone else, but aren't willing to say them to my face." Now this hit me hard because it is so far from the truth. I want to tell her everything, I truly do, she is the first person I truly desire to trust. But the reason I can't sometimes is she doesn't allow me too, she shuts me out at times, she pulls away, or she turns to texting, but believe me if she sat down with me and really had a real talk, I would tell her anything and everything. I hate hiding anything from her, I really want to be open to her, and her to know she can do the same with me. Many times her complaints about me in things like this she fails to realize I'm reacting to how she is acts towards me or what she texts or says to me.
One last one, and this happened years ago when we first started getting close, she said "You deserve the best, and I don't think I can give you what you need." This bothered me, because to me by her own definition the best is her. And she always gives me what I need by simply loving me and being there for me. I don't demand much at all, just be herself, love me, be loyal and committed. In love I really don't have many rules, I don't believe in controlling anyone like that. I believe in trust and loyalty instead. When I love her, I trust her, and it doesn't matter if I trust anyone else, because I trust her completely, and that is simply how I think. This illusion she never or couldn't give me what I need is so far from the truth, I think she never realized how thankful and grateful I am for her, and how amazing I see her as. There were times I actually thought to myself how lucky I was to have a such a great woman love me and spend time with me like she would. She'll never understand how much I appreciate her, and cherish everything about her.
I could on and on with memories, these are just the tips of the iceberg. I know when someone is lying or changing truth, I remember things, I might not always call them out on it, because to me it isn't worth the fight, but believe me I make mental notes and it goes a long way showing who a person is. Sometimes people make themselves forget things, and by doing so they try to force the world to forget too. Sometimes people make themselves believe distorted truths to help there own personal feelings, but it doesn't make them true. The best thing you can do is stop looking for ways justify you suspicions and rather look at the truth, real truths and not conspiracy theories, and then you can make real choices.
I will always love her completely, truly and purely. What I have for her is the real deal. I truly love everything she is. From her quirks to her strengths, I just love her that love. To me she can do no wrong, because in my heart I believe her completely.
So what I'm going to share is a few random things I remember the woman I love stating, and I'm not sure if she'll ever remember saying it or not, or even if she'll admit it, but I promise you it happened. Out of respect for her though, I'm not going to say anything too revealing or bad. This is more for reflection and maybe fun than anything else.
I remember a couple years ago we went shopping together, I believe she was getting some things for a party she was attending. And I said something in jest, and I remember her saying the following line, "I've accepted the fact that I'll always be an amazon, and I'm ok with that." Now, at the moment I didn't say anything in return and I believe I laughed a little, but something I've always wanted to tell her is she is beautiful in every way. From her body, her face, her hair, her heart and soul. There is absolutely nothing wrong with her, seriously. I respect the fact she admits she isn't perfect, I admire that in fact, but she calls her appearance an amazon, I call her appearance absolutely perfectly sexy. And I mean that, her build is part of what draws me to her, I mean she is so much more than looks for sure, but I just truly want her to know never to be ashamed of her build or size, because there is nothing wrong with her. I can't stress enough how much I love this about her.
She once texted me while we were fighting, and I believe it was our first real fight albeit through text which drives me nuts, anyway, she stated "You're not the great love you think you are." This one blew my mind in so many ways. I've never claimed to be a great love in any way, I've never claimed to be the best looking, best built, richest, or anything of that nature. There were times she told me I was amazing and such, but I never said that, now I confess I never responded much when she said those things. But look all I've ever said is my love is very real and very loyal and very true. I will love her as best I can, and only her. I will give everything I have for her and her success. Does that make me great, I don't really think so, but it makes me honest and real, there is a difference.
She once texted the following, "I feel you can say things to someone else, but aren't willing to say them to my face." Now this hit me hard because it is so far from the truth. I want to tell her everything, I truly do, she is the first person I truly desire to trust. But the reason I can't sometimes is she doesn't allow me too, she shuts me out at times, she pulls away, or she turns to texting, but believe me if she sat down with me and really had a real talk, I would tell her anything and everything. I hate hiding anything from her, I really want to be open to her, and her to know she can do the same with me. Many times her complaints about me in things like this she fails to realize I'm reacting to how she is acts towards me or what she texts or says to me.
One last one, and this happened years ago when we first started getting close, she said "You deserve the best, and I don't think I can give you what you need." This bothered me, because to me by her own definition the best is her. And she always gives me what I need by simply loving me and being there for me. I don't demand much at all, just be herself, love me, be loyal and committed. In love I really don't have many rules, I don't believe in controlling anyone like that. I believe in trust and loyalty instead. When I love her, I trust her, and it doesn't matter if I trust anyone else, because I trust her completely, and that is simply how I think. This illusion she never or couldn't give me what I need is so far from the truth, I think she never realized how thankful and grateful I am for her, and how amazing I see her as. There were times I actually thought to myself how lucky I was to have a such a great woman love me and spend time with me like she would. She'll never understand how much I appreciate her, and cherish everything about her.
I could on and on with memories, these are just the tips of the iceberg. I know when someone is lying or changing truth, I remember things, I might not always call them out on it, because to me it isn't worth the fight, but believe me I make mental notes and it goes a long way showing who a person is. Sometimes people make themselves forget things, and by doing so they try to force the world to forget too. Sometimes people make themselves believe distorted truths to help there own personal feelings, but it doesn't make them true. The best thing you can do is stop looking for ways justify you suspicions and rather look at the truth, real truths and not conspiracy theories, and then you can make real choices.
I will always love her completely, truly and purely. What I have for her is the real deal. I truly love everything she is. From her quirks to her strengths, I just love her that love. To me she can do no wrong, because in my heart I believe her completely.
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