Desire

I had a few things planned out to say and quote, but as I was writing things I just felt moved to just let myself speak out a little from my heart.  It might be a little raw, but what I say and write are very real.  I love her, and those aren't just words from me, they are my way of life.  I feel connected to her on a level I can't properly explain.

Everything I do or say in life is an effort to better myself to be able to provide her with the best love possible, to be able to have the means to help her dreams come true.  God says in the Bible "love thy neighbor as thyself."  I've always lived by this, and many give me grief for doing so, but I'm one of the few  who practice what I preach, and I take God's word to heart and do my best to follow it always.  Now get me wrong, I do mess up at times just like anybody else, but I promise you when it comes to love, I do it right and for the right reasons.

I don't fall in love easily at all.  But when I fall in love, I do fall hard I confess.  I love her just as I love myself, and because of this I will always put her first even before myself.  To me, this is love, when you feel so strongly for someone that you are willing to give yourself completely to them and their dreams.  Few people ever truly fall in love, because in today's world it's about ourselves, and very few ever are willing to love someone so purely that they would give themselves completely to them and to nobody else.  But this is how deep my love is for her.

Despite my flaws, I am loyal and true to her at all times.  She is the one and only for me and my heart.  Whatever it takes to win her heart, and whatever takes to provide for her and achieve her dreams.  I want to see the world from our eyes, feel the world through her heart, I want to heal her, and let her know she is never alone in this world.  All I need is her, nothing else really matters to me.  I submit to her all the time, not because I don't have my own desires and ideas, but because I choose to, and being there for her in love is all I care about in truth.

It's kind of ironic really, I'm extremely stubborn, and very rarely give up control of myself to anyone, but with her it's different, I don't need to be in control, I just need to be with her not matter where that might be.  Even when she is silent, I love her, even when she speaks, I love her, understand I only love her.  And she is the only one I would submit myself too.  Can I take charge?  Of course, thats easy, but why should I when I trust in her.  All she has to do is come and claim me, I'm ready for her, this is the one she needs to step up and grab me, there is a reason I don't force myself to her, because I know when she claims me and takes charge of me, that is the moment I know she is truly committed to us.  I only want the very best for her at all times, and everyday and every chance I get I will pray for that for her and do all I can to help her in any way.