Tomorrow is my favorite day of the year, it is the 24th, and no matter where I am in life or what I do that day, I am thankful for this day because the most important person in my world that I love the most was born on this day, and everytime it comes around its a reminder of how much I love her and how great she is. Look, she means everything to me, and I actually value her birthday more than my own, more than Christmas, Halloween and Thanksgiving put together. You haven't loved someone until you realize seeing them happy and successful is what brings true happiness to yourself.
That's how love her, she matters the most to me, I place her before myself at all times, and even when I'm hurting I make sure I find a way to make her smile and help her in anyway I can. I'm the type who values their privacy, who at times prefers to be alone, but for her it doesn't matter, I will always make time and room for her no matter what the circumstances or how I feel. I love her, more than anyone can ever comprehend. If anyone could wrap their head around how much I love her I promise their head would explode, and they would realize how deep my love runs and how nobody can ever truly love her more. When love hits you, real love, you realize all those rules and qualifications you placed on love, and all those "nevers" you claimed in love are meaningless. When you love someone they become what you need and want. And that is what happened with her in my heart, I never thought I could love someone like her, and I don't mean that in a bad way, because there isn't anything wrong with her, it was my own personal preferences that held me back at first.
But in time, I saw past my own preferences, and I began to see her, and the more we talked and the more I saw, the more I realized she not only is beautiful, but she is exactly the one for me. Its hard to explain until it happens to you. With her I wasn't seeking love, but God placed her in my path and love came to me. That is the part she can't seem to understand, but I have to understand she doesn't know where I was when she came into my life, so its hard for her to see how much of a God send she was and is to me. She loved me when I was at my lowest, she cared me when I shunned the world, she was the only person who took the time to befriend me when the rest of the world was rejecting me, and I have never forgotten that, and this is why I will always love her and be indebted to her. Money doesn't win me over, but she gave herself, her time, her heart to me and that is what bought me for life.
I'm a person who sees things in stages and I see where God intervenes in life, this is truly how I know God is very real, and that He loves me very much. Here is a quick example, early last year, I'd around March of 2015, I prayed to God to help me find a way to make myself able to provide for her better, I asked God to help me better my life and work environment, for Him to guide me through this way, and I asked God no matter what it takes, make this happen and I said I would be ok with whatever had to happen. I went a few months hating my job, I had a boss who was beyond conceded and self absorbed, a boss who only cared for herself and in her mind nobody else mattered, and it wore on me, by August I was burnt out and eventually let go, I could of fought to keep my job I confess, but truthfully I wanted to be gone and felt God was telling me to leave and it would be ok. I was scared, but I had faith. Somehow even getting let go God made a way for me to collect unemployment, I applied to jobs left and right, went on interviews with little success, I had 14 weeks of unemployment, and when my 14th week came around I didn't know how I was going to survive, but God answered, He said I would be ok, and He delivered. The day I received my final unemployment check it was November, and I got a call and job offer to work 4 weeks with Operation Christmas Child, it only paid $12 an hour, but I it was Christian organization and the cause was giving gifts to kids around the world who had never had a gift in their life. Those who know me know that I more than anything love to help others, especially kids, be happy. This job spoke to me on multiple levels, I felt I was making a real difference, and we had devotions everyday, God spoke to me and reminded me He is there and things are going to be ok. I had a job lined up to start when this one ended, but things went awry. When I finished in late December with Operation Christmas Child the job I had lined up drug their feet, for two weeks the kept me waiting, and I was beyond scared when funds were gone, bills and rent were looking impossible. I remember buying Christmas gifts and thinking to myself I might be homeless next month but at least I'll bring smiles to those I love one last time. The temp agency that I worked with Operation Christmas Child, Hire Dynamics, called me the second week of January for an interview with Viking Distribution. I went on the interview, and the person I interviewed had bible verses all over his desk and wall, he believes in a positive environment and treats his employees like people and not property. I felt great about this interview I was ready to start, but time passed without hearing anything. At this time I had no other choice but swallow my pride and borrow money from my friend and nother, and it killed me inside, but it made me realize how blessed I am to have them in my life. The other job that was suppose to start two weeks earlier called back, and offered $11 an hour to me, it was all the way in Alpharetta, since I hadn't heard anything from Viking Distribution, I took it. I prayed hard for God to work things out, I spent one day at that job and got a call from Hire Dynamics saying Viking Distribution wanted to hire me. I took it, and am now in a much healthier environment, making more money than I ever have. It took God 10 months to work on my prayer, and He isn't done yet, but its proof He listens and with patience He will answer. Now in a couple weeks I know I can pay rent, bills and those I had to borrow from.
I have several stories like this, and the woman I love is one of those stories, she doesn't know I prayed for her in my life years before we met, and she doesn't realize what happened in my life in order for me to meet her, she doesn't know how improbable it was for me to fall in love with her, but I do know and this is how I know we are meant be, and that God placed this love in me, and this is why I don't walk away or move on. This love I have for her is bigger than me and my life. One day I know God will open her heart, mind and eyes, one day God will pull back the veil and show her why she means show much to me. I just have to trust in God to find a way, and on His time I will be ready, and I will always put her first and love her completely.
That's how love her, she matters the most to me, I place her before myself at all times, and even when I'm hurting I make sure I find a way to make her smile and help her in anyway I can. I'm the type who values their privacy, who at times prefers to be alone, but for her it doesn't matter, I will always make time and room for her no matter what the circumstances or how I feel. I love her, more than anyone can ever comprehend. If anyone could wrap their head around how much I love her I promise their head would explode, and they would realize how deep my love runs and how nobody can ever truly love her more. When love hits you, real love, you realize all those rules and qualifications you placed on love, and all those "nevers" you claimed in love are meaningless. When you love someone they become what you need and want. And that is what happened with her in my heart, I never thought I could love someone like her, and I don't mean that in a bad way, because there isn't anything wrong with her, it was my own personal preferences that held me back at first.
But in time, I saw past my own preferences, and I began to see her, and the more we talked and the more I saw, the more I realized she not only is beautiful, but she is exactly the one for me. Its hard to explain until it happens to you. With her I wasn't seeking love, but God placed her in my path and love came to me. That is the part she can't seem to understand, but I have to understand she doesn't know where I was when she came into my life, so its hard for her to see how much of a God send she was and is to me. She loved me when I was at my lowest, she cared me when I shunned the world, she was the only person who took the time to befriend me when the rest of the world was rejecting me, and I have never forgotten that, and this is why I will always love her and be indebted to her. Money doesn't win me over, but she gave herself, her time, her heart to me and that is what bought me for life.
I'm a person who sees things in stages and I see where God intervenes in life, this is truly how I know God is very real, and that He loves me very much. Here is a quick example, early last year, I'd around March of 2015, I prayed to God to help me find a way to make myself able to provide for her better, I asked God to help me better my life and work environment, for Him to guide me through this way, and I asked God no matter what it takes, make this happen and I said I would be ok with whatever had to happen. I went a few months hating my job, I had a boss who was beyond conceded and self absorbed, a boss who only cared for herself and in her mind nobody else mattered, and it wore on me, by August I was burnt out and eventually let go, I could of fought to keep my job I confess, but truthfully I wanted to be gone and felt God was telling me to leave and it would be ok. I was scared, but I had faith. Somehow even getting let go God made a way for me to collect unemployment, I applied to jobs left and right, went on interviews with little success, I had 14 weeks of unemployment, and when my 14th week came around I didn't know how I was going to survive, but God answered, He said I would be ok, and He delivered. The day I received my final unemployment check it was November, and I got a call and job offer to work 4 weeks with Operation Christmas Child, it only paid $12 an hour, but I it was Christian organization and the cause was giving gifts to kids around the world who had never had a gift in their life. Those who know me know that I more than anything love to help others, especially kids, be happy. This job spoke to me on multiple levels, I felt I was making a real difference, and we had devotions everyday, God spoke to me and reminded me He is there and things are going to be ok. I had a job lined up to start when this one ended, but things went awry. When I finished in late December with Operation Christmas Child the job I had lined up drug their feet, for two weeks the kept me waiting, and I was beyond scared when funds were gone, bills and rent were looking impossible. I remember buying Christmas gifts and thinking to myself I might be homeless next month but at least I'll bring smiles to those I love one last time. The temp agency that I worked with Operation Christmas Child, Hire Dynamics, called me the second week of January for an interview with Viking Distribution. I went on the interview, and the person I interviewed had bible verses all over his desk and wall, he believes in a positive environment and treats his employees like people and not property. I felt great about this interview I was ready to start, but time passed without hearing anything. At this time I had no other choice but swallow my pride and borrow money from my friend and nother, and it killed me inside, but it made me realize how blessed I am to have them in my life. The other job that was suppose to start two weeks earlier called back, and offered $11 an hour to me, it was all the way in Alpharetta, since I hadn't heard anything from Viking Distribution, I took it. I prayed hard for God to work things out, I spent one day at that job and got a call from Hire Dynamics saying Viking Distribution wanted to hire me. I took it, and am now in a much healthier environment, making more money than I ever have. It took God 10 months to work on my prayer, and He isn't done yet, but its proof He listens and with patience He will answer. Now in a couple weeks I know I can pay rent, bills and those I had to borrow from.
I have several stories like this, and the woman I love is one of those stories, she doesn't know I prayed for her in my life years before we met, and she doesn't realize what happened in my life in order for me to meet her, she doesn't know how improbable it was for me to fall in love with her, but I do know and this is how I know we are meant be, and that God placed this love in me, and this is why I don't walk away or move on. This love I have for her is bigger than me and my life. One day I know God will open her heart, mind and eyes, one day God will pull back the veil and show her why she means show much to me. I just have to trust in God to find a way, and on His time I will be ready, and I will always put her first and love her completely.
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