Everyone always means to give you good advice, but in the end, the advice they give is really what is best in their eyes, and not so much what is best for you. They can't understand your pain, your love, or your point of view simply because they can't experience it themselves. I always hear do what makes you happy, do what is best for you, yet the moment what makes you happy affects them adversely your doing something wrong, in short doing only for yourself is not good advice. God didn't preach do only for you, God preached do for the greater good of all, God preached doing good for other's before yourself, God taught humility and grace, the world teaches doing for yourself, I don't about you but I tend to listen to God first.
When you ask someone to follow what makes them happy, did you ever stop and think you are what makes them happy, or did that just not process to you. God made Eve because Adam was lonely, so it is normal to find someone in life that is the cause of your happiness. You say chase what makes me truly happy, and that is you, yet you tell me to let go of you which means letting go of what makes me happy, your own advice contradicts itself. The truth is you want me to let go because it'll make you feel better about how things went, it'll justify your thoughts I never loved you as I say I do. It'll make things easier for you, not for me though, it'll make my heart heavier. Why you ask? Because I do love you, and I tell you the truth, yet you choose not to see it because you don't want to, but that doesn't make it any less true.
How would feel if you completely someone and they never gave your love a chance, in fact they acted like it wasn't important to them, how would feel inside if you loved someone so true like that and they walked away without even considering what could be. You always want to go with cliche line and say work on yourself, and I really hate that line because we all are always working on ourselves, we shouldn't have to change ourselves to be loved, why do we all have to adapt to worldly ways of love, God made us who we are for a reason, He made unique for a reason. I don't follow any script, I don't believe in these stupid game rules of love, those rules were made by the world and not God. I believe if you love someone you show it, you treat them with respect and kindness, not anger or doubt.
You can say I'm being jealous or comparing myself to whoever all you want, even if that isn't true, but the fact is there is truth in everything I have written, and that is what scares you, you realize what I say is true. Yet you'd rather fight me on it, and doubt me, make fun of me, and mark me as crazy, but reality is you know in your heart of hearts nobody has ever loved you truer than I have, nobody has ever fought so hard for you, nobody has ever stayed this loyal to you but me. You can't explain it or understand it, yet you realize my love is real.
The hardest thing to do is let someone you love fail and fall down. I want to stop you from being hurt, I see the signs and I'm want to stop it. But I know I can't get directly involved, if I do you'll hate me forever. I come here to write for a reason, I want to help yet I don't want to sway you either. Maybe I should just let you fall, maybe I should truly let you go and stop helping you in anyway, but I'm scared to, because in this world I see people fall everyday and then be gone forever. I'm a sucker to my own heart, it isn't in me to hurt you or cause you pain, yet every time I help you or be there for you it only encourages you to take my love for granted. The Virgo in me says be cold to you, but the God me says stick by you.
I'm not the bad guy, and maybe the real question should be why do you doubt your current situation when truth is brought up, reality is that doubt was there before I said anything and you know it. If you have doubts now, they only grow the closer you get. There will be good times, but the doubts will lead to a bad time that could be life altering. I have never let you fall, I have never abandoned you, I have always done my very best to be there for you, that is love. I'm no the exciting bad boy, I'm not the eye candy who grabs your ass, no, I'm the man who sees you for the treasure you are and respects you enough to provide for you and stand by you, I'm the man who loves you the way you are and doesn't want to change you.
Maybe not giving up on you is my way of working on myself, maybe in the past I always gave up on love too soon, and now I realize I cant' keep giving up. If I let you go, I let everything go, not just the love, if I give up on you, I give up on me and who I am. God blesses those with His greatest blessings who put Him first, other's second and themselves last. Why do you judge me so wrongly for loving you so truly? I have loved you for years, long before any of these other's were in your life and you know it, how am I wrong for loving you and you right for pretending like my love is good enough for you.
Saying work on yourself is a cop out, it's a simple way of saying I don't care about what you feel or if I'm hurting you. Name one time God said do for yourself first before helping other's, you can't but He never did. I just don't it, you say you want me to be happy, yet you try so hard to kill my love for you, I just don't get it, and then you act innocent when I'm crushed, that makes no sense whatsoever. Maybe you should look in that mirror yourself and ask yourself have you done right to those who were there for you no matter the cost to themselves, to those who have always loved you and stayed by you. You talk all big, and try to make me look evil and jealous, but in the end you realize I do love you more than anyone else ever can. Maybe it's not me who is mistaken, maybe my love really is real. Let's not forget I never gave up on you, you chose to give up on me, and why, because I loved you too much and made the effort to show you, think about it.
Before you condemn me, start seeing things for all point of views, start trying to feel my pain and not just what justifies what you've done. If you loved me, you'd make time for me, and stop pushing me aside to make time for everyone else, I wouldn't be the fallback option only. Do you know how much it hurts to have someone make plans to spend time you or say they love you only to have them forget about you when someone else comes along? That is what you keep doing to me.
When you ask someone to follow what makes them happy, did you ever stop and think you are what makes them happy, or did that just not process to you. God made Eve because Adam was lonely, so it is normal to find someone in life that is the cause of your happiness. You say chase what makes me truly happy, and that is you, yet you tell me to let go of you which means letting go of what makes me happy, your own advice contradicts itself. The truth is you want me to let go because it'll make you feel better about how things went, it'll justify your thoughts I never loved you as I say I do. It'll make things easier for you, not for me though, it'll make my heart heavier. Why you ask? Because I do love you, and I tell you the truth, yet you choose not to see it because you don't want to, but that doesn't make it any less true.
How would feel if you completely someone and they never gave your love a chance, in fact they acted like it wasn't important to them, how would feel inside if you loved someone so true like that and they walked away without even considering what could be. You always want to go with cliche line and say work on yourself, and I really hate that line because we all are always working on ourselves, we shouldn't have to change ourselves to be loved, why do we all have to adapt to worldly ways of love, God made us who we are for a reason, He made unique for a reason. I don't follow any script, I don't believe in these stupid game rules of love, those rules were made by the world and not God. I believe if you love someone you show it, you treat them with respect and kindness, not anger or doubt.
You can say I'm being jealous or comparing myself to whoever all you want, even if that isn't true, but the fact is there is truth in everything I have written, and that is what scares you, you realize what I say is true. Yet you'd rather fight me on it, and doubt me, make fun of me, and mark me as crazy, but reality is you know in your heart of hearts nobody has ever loved you truer than I have, nobody has ever fought so hard for you, nobody has ever stayed this loyal to you but me. You can't explain it or understand it, yet you realize my love is real.
The hardest thing to do is let someone you love fail and fall down. I want to stop you from being hurt, I see the signs and I'm want to stop it. But I know I can't get directly involved, if I do you'll hate me forever. I come here to write for a reason, I want to help yet I don't want to sway you either. Maybe I should just let you fall, maybe I should truly let you go and stop helping you in anyway, but I'm scared to, because in this world I see people fall everyday and then be gone forever. I'm a sucker to my own heart, it isn't in me to hurt you or cause you pain, yet every time I help you or be there for you it only encourages you to take my love for granted. The Virgo in me says be cold to you, but the God me says stick by you.
I'm not the bad guy, and maybe the real question should be why do you doubt your current situation when truth is brought up, reality is that doubt was there before I said anything and you know it. If you have doubts now, they only grow the closer you get. There will be good times, but the doubts will lead to a bad time that could be life altering. I have never let you fall, I have never abandoned you, I have always done my very best to be there for you, that is love. I'm no the exciting bad boy, I'm not the eye candy who grabs your ass, no, I'm the man who sees you for the treasure you are and respects you enough to provide for you and stand by you, I'm the man who loves you the way you are and doesn't want to change you.
Maybe not giving up on you is my way of working on myself, maybe in the past I always gave up on love too soon, and now I realize I cant' keep giving up. If I let you go, I let everything go, not just the love, if I give up on you, I give up on me and who I am. God blesses those with His greatest blessings who put Him first, other's second and themselves last. Why do you judge me so wrongly for loving you so truly? I have loved you for years, long before any of these other's were in your life and you know it, how am I wrong for loving you and you right for pretending like my love is good enough for you.
Saying work on yourself is a cop out, it's a simple way of saying I don't care about what you feel or if I'm hurting you. Name one time God said do for yourself first before helping other's, you can't but He never did. I just don't it, you say you want me to be happy, yet you try so hard to kill my love for you, I just don't get it, and then you act innocent when I'm crushed, that makes no sense whatsoever. Maybe you should look in that mirror yourself and ask yourself have you done right to those who were there for you no matter the cost to themselves, to those who have always loved you and stayed by you. You talk all big, and try to make me look evil and jealous, but in the end you realize I do love you more than anyone else ever can. Maybe it's not me who is mistaken, maybe my love really is real. Let's not forget I never gave up on you, you chose to give up on me, and why, because I loved you too much and made the effort to show you, think about it.
Before you condemn me, start seeing things for all point of views, start trying to feel my pain and not just what justifies what you've done. If you loved me, you'd make time for me, and stop pushing me aside to make time for everyone else, I wouldn't be the fallback option only. Do you know how much it hurts to have someone make plans to spend time you or say they love you only to have them forget about you when someone else comes along? That is what you keep doing to me.
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