I am the type of person who hates asking for help, even if I know I desperately need it. When bad things happen and tough times come, I just much rather man up and find a way to fix things myself than burden someone else. That is why many people never know when I'm struggling through things, I am a master at hiding my problems, and a master at keeping something secret when it matters. So if I come to you with a problem and ask for help, you can be sure that it is killing me on the inside to ask, but you can also be sure I love and trust more than anyone in the world, and I would do the same for you and more in a second.
It's why I never share my next move in anything, I never reveal my plans, I'm careful and honest, and only tell what needs to be told to get the job done right. At times it can weigh on me, and if I'm in a committed relationship, then they can be assured that nobody will know what is going on between us but us, but we have to be in that committed relationship. Love and trust go hand in hand.
I don't discuss my love life or plans with just anyone, that is just how guarded I am. If I tell you I'll keep something secret, then I will at all costs. I'm a lockbox on information and feelings, and one day I'm sure I'll implode, but thats a price I'm willing to pay for those I love.
I love her, her secrets have always been safe with me, and if I was with her I would be proud of her and never ashamed to show our love to the world, but I respect her enough to keep what happens between us between us. In the past I have slipped up, but I went to someone we both mutually trust, someone who actually is closer to her. I did so, because I loved her so much I wanted to do everything I could to keep her in my heart. Did I make the right choice? I don't know, because that person helped us mend things, but I know the one I love was bothered by it. In the future, I'll try to keep it between us, but I was scared and I love her, and if I didn't do everything I could to hold her, than I felt I wasn't trying. I would sell my life and freedom to simply spend my life with her in love, and yes she is worth it.
Some people think the got me figured out, but nobody really does. There are a couple people who know me well, and she is one, and that is part of the reason I love her. She knows my heart is pure and true, she knows my love is loyal and real, she realizes I'm the real deal who won't take shortcuts or cheat others. In many ways, she is who I am, she is my heart.
It's why I never share my next move in anything, I never reveal my plans, I'm careful and honest, and only tell what needs to be told to get the job done right. At times it can weigh on me, and if I'm in a committed relationship, then they can be assured that nobody will know what is going on between us but us, but we have to be in that committed relationship. Love and trust go hand in hand.
I don't discuss my love life or plans with just anyone, that is just how guarded I am. If I tell you I'll keep something secret, then I will at all costs. I'm a lockbox on information and feelings, and one day I'm sure I'll implode, but thats a price I'm willing to pay for those I love.
I love her, her secrets have always been safe with me, and if I was with her I would be proud of her and never ashamed to show our love to the world, but I respect her enough to keep what happens between us between us. In the past I have slipped up, but I went to someone we both mutually trust, someone who actually is closer to her. I did so, because I loved her so much I wanted to do everything I could to keep her in my heart. Did I make the right choice? I don't know, because that person helped us mend things, but I know the one I love was bothered by it. In the future, I'll try to keep it between us, but I was scared and I love her, and if I didn't do everything I could to hold her, than I felt I wasn't trying. I would sell my life and freedom to simply spend my life with her in love, and yes she is worth it.
Some people think the got me figured out, but nobody really does. There are a couple people who know me well, and she is one, and that is part of the reason I love her. She knows my heart is pure and true, she knows my love is loyal and real, she realizes I'm the real deal who won't take shortcuts or cheat others. In many ways, she is who I am, she is my heart.
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