Respect

If you're going to fight for equality, then you have to fight for equality for all.  All races, all sexes, all ages, everyone.  Equality, true equality, is everyone having the same rights and opportunities, and everyone being treated with the same respect.  I never understood or agreed with this one partner should be dominant in a relationship angle, it's mostly guys who tote this thought thinking since they're a man that they have to have power over a woman, that is not love or  true equality.

Look, you should respect your significant other and you should love them dearly and truly, and fight for their dreams as much as your's, really in my eyes your and their dreams should become your combined dreams together.  A woman should respect her man, but a man should equally respect his woman, and any real man understands this and lives this.

It is a man's duty to provide and protect his family and wife, but this doesn't give the man absolute power in any way.  There will be times when us men will fail and have our weak moments, and our wife, the strong woman she is, will support us and many times do what she needs to do to protect her man.  There is no shame in that, nobody is perfect.

This is why I love her, she is her own woman, she understands she doesn't have to rely on any man or really any other person to succeed and survive, I both love and respect her for this so much.  However, it doesn't mean a man can't be there for her, and I will always be there for her in anyway that I can.  Not because I feel she needs me to survive, no, but because I love her and want to give myself to help her and motivate her.  I'm a man who loves her so much that I want her to surpass me, and I'll be proud of her and support her.

Love is a two way street which needs balance and equality.  And you look down on women as a man, then you will never have that balance in love.  Women owe us nothing just because we're men, and vice versa.  Love a woman because you respect her, because the truth is, she has a mind and heart of her own, and if you don't treat it right, then she could choose to walk away at any time, it is her right, the same right we have.

I will never try to change her, I love her just the way she is, she is smart, ambitious, strong, kind, Godly, a little bit crazy (in a good way), and down to earth.  In my eyes, there isn't a more perfect woman alive, maybe I'm biased, but I don't care, I love her.  And I have always lived as I say, I always deliver, and she knows in her heart I always will.  I will never talk down to her, or bad about her, I will always support her, and do what I can to help her be the best she can be.  Real love isn't about controlling someone or holding someone back, real love is about giving yourself up for the betterment of the one you love, for the betterment of you both.  I will always be willing to sacrifice what I must to protect her and provide for her simply for the fact I love her.  All I need in life to be happy, is to have her by my side for life, she is my world, she is my love for life.  They say be thankful for what you have, and I'm thankful for her every day, every time I pray I let God know she is all I ever need to be happy for life, and that is completely true.  I don't money, I don't need power, I don't need glory, I don't need fame, all I need is her love and I'm complete.

So as a man, a white man at that, I say don't ever demand respect from anyone if you are not giving the same respect back.  Respect is earned, it is not taken.  I may not be the biggest dog in the fight, but I promise you I will never waver from my morals and beliefs, and I will never back down from what is right.  The simple truth is, every time I fall, I know God will pick me up, and if He doesn't, that means He must be ready to take me home.  And to the one I love, I know you love me, because you show it, and for that I say thank you, you are amazing and a true blessing.  You have always been there for me, and I have always noticed, I love you so much, I have two true friends in life, and they are my backbone in every way, I will always stand by them, fight with them, and give myself up to keep them standing, not because I have to, but because I want to.   I believe in them, and I believe in doing what is right for those I love.

The Keys To Me

I truly am a Virgo, and here are some traits about Virgo in love that I confess are true about me:

"Your Virgo lover isn't a player. He may remind you of someone testing the ice on a frozen lake; he's going to take it very slowly. He's methodical and logical. He has to make sure he's not going to fall through the ice into deadly cold waters. He doesn't like being exposed emotionally, so he must be confident you're worth the effort and emotional risk.  Don't be surprised if one of his close buddies approaches you about the possibility of a first date. Insecure Virgo needs to know he won't be turned down when he asks you out.  Virgo won't show or share his love in public groups, he will even be distant or seem cold with those he loves most in public settings.  However, when Virgo is alone with the one he loves they are the center of his world."

This is very true, I'm not comfortable putting my feelings and love out there in public, but when alone I can open up immensely.  I do move slow, and can be very careful and picky.  But if I love you, it means to me you're worth any risk no matter how big or small.


"Virgo is initially cautious of love. A Virgo man will first observe his potential partner, watching for any poor indicators. However, once convinced, he'll move in fast to secure his mate. Love's newness tends to overwhelm Virgo at first. If you're the lucky person on the receiving end, be prepared to be:

• Adored, spoiled and lavished with his attention and gifts
• Idealized
• Protected
• Immersed in a serious relationship"

Very true about me, once I love you, I will do anything for you to see that you're happy.  I take love very serious, and only entertain someone I see as a potential life long love.

 "A Virgo male is rather introverted because he just isn't comfortable with all those emotions. Showing his feelings threatens the image he loves to portray of being calm, cool and collected at all times. Being in love is the rare time you'll ever find him unable to contain his feelings and feeling a bit out of control. It won't last, so enjoy it while it does. He'll soon be back to his regimented discipline and logical approach to life and love."

True again, my perfect night is being alone with the woman I love, I don't need anything else to be happy.  And that one person I love is the only person who can truly cause me to lose control of myself, which is a good thing sometimes.

"Picky Virgo, love can be a challenge when your high standards get involved. As the zodiac’s perfectionist, it’s hard for anyone to measure up to your criteria. You’d rather be alone than settle—a great attitude, as long as you keep your expectations realistic."

Yep, as much as I hate being alone, I refuse to settle for anyone else but the one I love, I value my heart too much for less.

"Wise and worldly though you are, there’s a certain childlike innocence about you as well. No matter how tough or wild you act, when it comes to romance, Virgos have an old-fashioned streak. You want the full fantasy, complete with a dashing suitor who sweeps you off your feet (or vice-versa). Even if you run a physics lab or boast several PhDs, your romantic notions remain simplistically sweet. Amid the fantasies, however, your soulmate still has to pass a long, practical checklist. For starters, this person has to be clean (Virgos are hygiene freaks), loyal, respectful and intelligent. No dummies make it past a first date with picky Virgo — not even the hot ones!"

Correct, looks are powerless to us if we don't love who you are.  And we are quite innocent in love, we always mean well and try hard, and when we make mistakes we often times don't realize what we did, and will do anything to make up for it and fix it because we love you.

"Like a Virgin, you need to be wooed and courted. Flings bore you, and you rarely indulge in them. Virgos have their eye on the real thing. Your family must approve of your mate — and this person will eventually be paraded in front of them before you decide if she’s a keeper. You should be able to picture this person as the co-parent of your children. You may be sentimental, but you’re far more practical. You choose with your head before your heart."

Yep, no one night stands here with me, and I do look at love long term and if I could build a family with them.  As a Virgo, my love is my world and she will have anything she needs or wants from me, or I'll die trying to make it happen for her.

Now you know how I love and maybe a little of why, I don't love someone for no reason at all, a lot of thought and time go into it, so believe me when I do love you, I know I love you forever.



 

Picky Virgo, love can be a challenge when your high standards get involved. As the zodiac’s perfectionist, it’s hard for anyone to measure up to your criteria. You’d rather be alone than settle—a great attitude, as long as you keep your expectations realistic. - See more at: http://astrostyle.com/love-horoscopes/12-signs-in-love/love-signs-virgo/#sthash.Ipdcwc4u.dpuf

Picky Virgo, love can be a challenge when your high standards get involved. As the zodiac’s perfectionist, it’s hard for anyone to measure up to your criteria. You’d rather be alone than settle—a great attitude, as long as you keep your expectations realistic. - See more at: http://astrostyle.com/love-horoscopes/12-signs-in-love/love-signs-virgo/#sthash.Ipdcwc4u.dpuf

 

icky Virgo, love can be a challenge when your high standards get involved. As the zodiac’s perfectionist, it’s hard for anyone to measure up to your criteria. You’d rather be alone than settle—a great attitude, as long as you keep your expectations realistic. - See more at: http://astrostyle.com/love-horoscopes/12-signs-in-love/love-signs-virgo/#sthash.Ipdcwc4u.dpuf

Picky Virgo, love can be a challenge when your high standards get involved. As the zodiac’s perfectionist, it’s hard for anyone to measure up to your criteria. You’d rather be alone than settle—a great attitude, as long as you keep your expectations realistic. - See more at: http://astrostyle.com/love-horoscopes/12-signs-in-love/love-signs-virgo/#sthash.Ipdcwc4u.dpuf

Forever

I get it, life is scary, things happen and we don't always have the immediate answer, or things don't go how we thought they were.  We get scarred and burned, and we sometimes brace ourselves for the worse rather than hope for the best.  I wish I could tell you that everything would be perfect and be the best ever.  But reality is we all have our struggles from time to time, we all have our peaks and our valleys, but the thing is even though life is scary and can have it's low moments, there are times life can be wonderful and dreams can come true.

The thing is, I love you, and while I can't stop you from crying in life, I can be the one who is there to wipe away your tears and give you the shoulder you need.  I can't say you'll never be sad, but I can be the one who can cause you to smile again.  I can't say we won't ever fail, but I can say I will be the one who won't let you give up. The thing that separates me from all the other guys is I actually mean what I say and follow through in putting you first, maybe I'm old school, but I was always taught its the guy's responsibility to be able to provide for his love, to support her, and stand with her, not to control her.

I see you as so much more than someone I love, so much more than your beauty, I see you as a strong and driven woman, a mother driven to make her daughter's life better, a daughter dedicated to being there for her mother, a working woman who wants to be able to depend on nobody but herself, a woman who both fears and loves God, I see you as successful woman who will never give up on herself or those she loves.  My love goes deeper than looks, sex, money or anything like that, and thats always been what I've tried to show you, it's why I don't try weak pick up lines or grab your ass, I love you more than that, and I respect you, call me a gentleman if you want, but maybe I feel love is a precious thing that should be pure.

Ever ask yourself why I refuse to give up on you?  Well, ever think my love for you is that real and pure.  Ever think I see you for who you truly are inside and know how beautiful you truly are.  Ever think I love your heart and soul.  I'm not perfect, I know, but I know I love you completely.  And I already know deep inside I want to spend my life with you and be happy.  You think I'm crazy, you think I don't know you, but reality is I do know you more than you ever know.  Any real man who truly falls in love will say he doesn't deserve the woman he loves, and that isn't because he doubts himself at all, no it is because he is that confident in the woman he loves.  That's how much I love you.

I can't promise you a perfect life, but I can promise you I will never leave you.  I can promise you that I will do everything possible to provide for us and give you the happiest life possible.  I can promise you I will be thankful for you everyday and tell you I love you every night.  I will never grow bored of you, I will never tear you down.  I will always listen to you, and do the very best I can to be there for you.  A man is only willing to do these things for one woman in his life, and that is the woman he completely loves, you are the woman I completely love, I can promise you that.  I don't just love you when times are good, I love when times are bad more because you need love more than.  So love me the same, don't wait until things are good to love me, because nothing lasts forever, if your going to love me, than love me completely, as I love you.

Life isn't black and white, it's full of millions of colors and shades, maybe you're scared to love me because you just can't fathom my love is as true as I say, rest assured if anything I'm underselling my love for you, truly words can't do my love for you justice.  If you were dying and needed a heart to live, I would give you mine, and die happy knowing you had a chance to live on, and believe me I would have no regrets.

I want to be the reason you smile, the reason you laugh, the reason you dream, because you are all those things to me.  I don't just write these things for style, I write them because I truly feel this way about you, one day you'll get it.  I want to hold you and be held by you forever, I love you.

Roadblocks

I see it all the time, a woman wants a good guy to love and treat her with respect and love, yet they are draw to the bad guy who is more exciting and a bit of a challenge to solve.  The thing is, the good guy truly loves them and will remain loyal to them and do everything in their power to provide for them.  Yet often times women doubt they can be what they feel the good guy deserves, their primal side says stay away from them except as friends, yet there deep feelings say this guy is the one for you, he is the one who can an will always be there for you and love you no matter what.  They always say the good guy is such a great guy, they say anyone would be lucky to have him, but they never realize that they are that anyone and everyone to that good guy.

Good guys don't care if there are a million fish in the sea, they love the one fish completely and no other fish really matters to them.  Good guys find the one they love, and they realize that is one they want to work for, that is the one they're willing to put their life on hold for, that is the one they are willing to give their life to.  And good guys won't do that for any other woman but that one they love completely.  The good guys are there, women just have to start willing to take a chance on them, and give them the same chances you give the bad guys, and trust me, good guys won't need as many chances, because with good guys it's not about power, to them it's about their love for you.  Good guys, take the one they love and place them before their own needs and dreams, there is no use arguing with us about this, we won't change on that.

Because not putting you first lessens our love for you in our eyes.  We don't care what other's think about our love, we only care what our love thinks and feels, it's why we stay loyal.  A good guy waits patiently, and we'll get made fun of for waiting, but what people don't realize is we know true love like that is worth the wait because we value it so much more.  To women out there, if a good guy loves you, then believe me you are all and more than he feels he deserves, in many cases you feels you are more than the world to him.  A good guy will always love you and never cheat on you, and it isn't because he can't, it's because he loves you enough to not do so.  And women, you are worth a good guy's love, all you have to do is believe in yourself and his love, and I promise things will work out better than you could ever hope.  When a good guy truly loves you, no differences or obstacles can ever truly stand in your loves way.

A good guy won't talk down to you, a good guy won't hold you back, a good guy will always support you even if it seems impossible.  That's what we do, we build you up, and push you through the impossible or we crash with you.  A bad guy, isn't just plain bad, but they'll always make excuses what they can't be there and always doubt you and always argue with you that you don't make sense.  It's not that they're just bad, but they can't help but place they're needs first.  Know the difference, to find the good guy, you first have to stop being your own roadblock.  Stop making excuses why you can't be, and start thinking of reasons it might just work.  It is worth the risk, as it will lead to happiness, true happiness, and peace.  I know women doubt these things until they find that one good guy, but trust me, it is often the one good guy you push away that winds up being the best guy you ever loved.

Would You

If I got locked away
And we lost it all today...
Tell me honestly...
Would you still love me the same?
If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn't be strong
Tell me honestly
Would you still love me the same?

Right about now...
If a judge for life me...
Would you stay by my side?
Or is ya gonna say good-bye?
Can you tell me right now?
If I couldn't buy you the fancy things in life
Shawty would it be alright
Come and show me that you are down

Now tell me would you really ride for me?
Baby tell me would you die for me?
Would you spend your whole life with me?
Would you be there to always hold me down?
Tell me would you really cry for me? (Would you really cry for me?)
Baby don't lie to me
If I didn't have anything...
I wanna know would you stick around?

If I got locked away
And we lost it all today...
Tell me honestly...
Would you still love me the same?
If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn't be strong
Tell me honestly
Would you still love me the same?

Let's get it diddly-down-down-down
All I want is somebody real who don't need much
A gal I know that I can trust...
To be here when money low
If I did not have nothing else to give but love...
Would that even be enough?
Gal meh need fi know

Now tell me would you really ride for me?
Baby tell me would you die for me?
Would you spend your whole life with me?
Would you be there to always hold me down?
Tell me would you really cry for me? (Would you really cry for me?)
Baby don't lie to me
If I didn't have anything...
I wanna know would you stick around?

If I got locked away
And we lost it all today...
Tell me honestly...
Would you still love me the same?
If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn't be strong
Tell me honestly
Would you still love me the same?

Tell me, tell me, would you want me? (Want me!)
Tell me, tell me, would you call me? (Call me!)
If you knew I wasn't ballin'
Cause I need a gal who's always by my side...
Tell me, tell me, do you need me? (Need me)
Tell me, tell me, do you love me yea?
Or is ya just tryna play me?
Cause I need a gal to hold me down for life...

If I got locked away
And we lost it all today...
Tell me honestly...
Would you still love me the same?
If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn't be strong
Tell me honestly
Would you still love me the same?

If I got locked away
And we lost it all today...
Tell me honestly...
Would you still love me the same?
If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn't be strong
Tell me honestly...
Would you still love me the same?

Would you still love me the same? 

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I will have my weak moments, so will you and everyone else, but I know for myself when things are bad I will smile and do everything in my power to make things not only better, but the best they can be for us all.  I will stick by you no matter what happens, and no matter what you do, I'm not saying you can do no wrong, but I am saying I love you enough to forgive you and stand by you for life.  I don't want the woman I love to be submissive, I want her to be strong and stand up for what she believes in, I want her to be on our team for life.  That is why I love you like I do, you are strong and that is beautiful and I hope that never changes.  I won't try to change or contain you, because I believe your strength is your attitude, and I want you to stay strong, because while your attitude isn't always right, it is always strong and makes you strong in return.  I can handle your attitude, believe me, my patience is neverending.  Don't think for one second because I don't yell or get ad that I won't stand up to you, I just do so in a better way.  I bide my time, I pick my moments.  I love you, and have no problem giving myself to you because I love you and I trust you and I want to.  I stay quiet and listen more than I talk for a reason, not because I have nothing to say, but because I know there are time to say those things.  I don't talk much in groups, but put me alone with someone I care about and I'll let you inside for everything, that's why I'm so good at staying private with secrets.  One day I know you'll realize my special my love is, and rare it is, and I'll be waiting.  But I won't push anything on you simply because I don't endorse cheating of any kind in love, that is the repsectful part of me I will never let die.  I am loyal, and I have my integrity and morals, and I lead by example always.  Everything in this song above I would do for you without regret, would you do the same for love.

Live Without

Sometimes when you love someone, you have to wait for them to figure out they love you too.  With love, it isn't about changing a person to fit you, it's about loving someone enough to love them for how they love you.  Love isn't about loving someone who can do no wrong, it's about loving someone you are willing to forgive and  grow with.  Sometimes we overlook real love because we want something else, but real love doesn't fade, real love doesn't give up even when things look bleak.

Love will always find a way to succeed and provide, real love will do whatever it takes to survive.  My love for you is very real.  But I need to see you take a leap of faith now, I need to see you risk it all for our love, because you know I've already shown you I would risk it all time and time again.  You can't just sit back and let someone else do all the work, sooner or later you got to make that effort too.  It just takes one big risk, and I can promise you I'll make sure your risk is more than successful.

I know you aren't perfect, I know I'm not perfect, I know there will be good and bad times with us, I know at times we will argue and disagree, and at other times we will laugh and agree on everything, but I also know that through all that I will never stop loving you, supporting and believing in you.  I respect and love you so much as a great person in life.  You have always been there for me and supported me, and I have always noticed that and been extremely thankful for you, and I always will be.  I wish the way things were I could walk up and claim you, but until you make that possible, my hands are tied out of respect for you.  With the way things are now, you have to come after me, and believe me, I'll respond, that I can promise.  No risk, no reward.  Love someone you can't imagine life without, because I can't imagine my life without you.

Hard For Me

I am the type of person who hates asking for help, even if I know I desperately need it.  When bad things happen and tough times come, I just much rather man up and find a way to fix things myself than burden someone else.  That is why many people never know when I'm struggling through things, I am a master at hiding my problems, and a master at keeping something secret when it matters.  So if I come to you with a problem and ask for help, you can be sure that it is killing me on the inside to ask, but you can also be sure I love and trust more than anyone in the world, and I would do the same for you and more in a second.

It's why I never share my next move in anything, I never reveal my plans, I'm careful and honest, and only tell what needs to be told to get the job done right.  At times it can weigh on me, and if I'm in a committed relationship, then they can be assured that nobody will know what is going on between us but us, but we have to be in that committed relationship.  Love and trust go hand in hand.

I don't discuss my love life or plans with just anyone, that is just how guarded I am.  If I tell you I'll keep something secret, then I will at all costs.  I'm a lockbox on information and feelings, and one day I'm sure I'll implode, but thats a price I'm willing to pay for those I love.

I love her, her secrets have always been safe with me, and if I was with her I would be proud of her and never ashamed to show our love to the world, but I respect her enough to keep what happens between us between us.  In the past I have slipped up, but I went to someone we both mutually trust, someone who actually is closer to her.  I did so, because I loved her so much I wanted to do everything I could to keep her in my heart.  Did I make the right choice?  I don't know, because that person helped us mend things, but I know the one I love was bothered by it.  In the future, I'll try to keep it between us, but I was scared and I love her, and if I didn't do everything I could to hold her, than I felt I wasn't trying.  I would sell my life and freedom to simply spend my life with her in love, and yes she is worth it.

Some people think the got me figured out, but nobody really does.  There are a couple people who know me well, and she is one, and that is part of the reason I love her.  She knows my heart is pure and true, she knows my love is loyal and real, she realizes I'm the real deal who won't take shortcuts or cheat others.  In many ways, she is who I am, she is my heart.

I Am

I am me, I think for myself, and I am proud of who I am and what I'm about, I stay humble, yet I stay driven to be the best person I can be.  I lead by example, I am no sheep, I am not fooled easily, I pick my moments and battles to fight.  I do not fear death or man as neither can hurt me unless God let's them.  I am positive at all times, I believe in the best in people, and I do not judge.  I keep an open mind, I forgive, I remember, I believe in multiple chances, I believe no one is perfect, I believe we've all made and will make mistakes.  I will no budge, I will not change, nor will I try to change anyone else.  I believe you should be free, free to think for yourself and live by what you truly believe.  I believe in teaching kindness, humility, forgiveness and equality.  I don't believe in revenge or spreading hate.  Doubt me or fight me if you want, but in the end I always rise above through God.  I walk the walk at all times.

History is exactly what it is, history.  None of us were there, and the people in the past didn't know what the present would be and decide to lie the fool people long after they were dead.  Don't believe the lies, don't believe the false conspiracies, that is exactly what they want you do, they want to stir you up so you can spread yet, and they can capitalize on it.  Like it or not, history is exactly what it is, we can't change history, but we can learn from it and change the present and future.  You can't grow if you keep trying to manipulate the past.  Lead by example, help one another no matter who they are, give with a giving heart, love without conditions, don't just say it, live it.  Other's will follow in time.  If we all do it, the world will and can change for the better.  Let the good people stand up and out number the bad.  Turn the other cheek.

I love her, I'm ready for her, and I would walk through Hell for her.  I will not fade, I will not die, I am here for the long haul.  She knows my love is real, and I know she loves me too, and that is something nobody can ever destroy between us because God placed that love there in us both.  Love will always defeat jealousy and hate.  I want her to be the greatest person to ever exist, I truly do.  She has fixed me multiple times, and kept me standing more than she ever knows, she is my rock, she is my life, and I wouldn't have it any other way, I love her forever.

Strong

One thing people rarely realize about me is as hard as I can be on other people, I am the hardest on myself.  Nobody knows my weaknesses more than I do, and I beat myself up everyday for them, but I also fight everyday to make those weaknesses my strengths.  I set my goals high, and I strive and do what I must to attain them, however I stick my who I am, and there are lines I simply refuse to cross.

I say if you dream to reach for the starts, then reach for the sun and all the other stars will come to you.  I love one woman, and I love her for who she is and how she builds me, I actually love how she isn't afraid to challenge me, and while we may not always agree, I will always love and respect her and her opinions. 

I set my expectations and standards high for myself and those I love, but the thing is I'm realistic, I understand those expectations are almost impossible to reach, and nobody is perfect.  I love her, and she doesn't realize she has already exceeded every thing I need and want in my love.  She is already more than what I deserve.  She is brash, but she is loving.  She is strong, but she is giving.  She is aggressive, but she is loyal.  She is stubborn, but she is caring.  I love who she is so much.  She drives me nuts, but that is a good thing as she keeps me on my toes.

Never once have I ever been disappointed in her, never once have I ever regretted loving her, she truly is perfection in my world.  I believe in her completely, always have even in my darkest times.  We might be different, but that's exactly how I love it, she sees things in ways that I don't and as a result opens my mind and heart to worlds I never knew existed.  I just want to be a part her forever.  Love this strong can't be by chance, it can't be fake.

I refuse to give her up, I refuse to leave the one person who means the most to me.  She is the only person I get nervous around, she is the one who brings me to my knees always.  When she enters the room I instantly make her the center of my attention without trying.  I can't explain it, it's not what she does or how she looks, it's who she is.  She can be misunderstood, yet I actually understand her more than she knows.  All I know is life is full of uncertainties, and I know that the only thing I want in life is face everything with her.  I won't promise things will be easy or perfect, but I promise I will always love you and stay with you until time stops, I am your's by choice, you are my backbone, you are my rock, you are my end all and be all, and for that I am thankful.  I've made many mistakes in life, but you are the one choice I know without a doubt is the right choice,  I bet my life on you literally.  All can say, if you doubt me, than test me and try me and I promise you will doubt me again.

Interesting

This article link below is a really good read on how to treat people and learn how actions speak volumes (you might have to copy and paste it):

http://storylineblog.com/2014/09/04/why-it-doesnt-matter-how-you-feel-about-your-friends/

I highly recommend the read, because in the end we all know how true this is.  You can love someone all you want, but if you don't tell them or show them, then they might not realize how much you truly love them.  This is why, even with friends, I make sure to text "good morning" everyday, or make an effort to make time to check on them, it's my way of showing I love them and am thinking about them and am truly thankful for them, and that truly is the only reason.  Life is short, time is short, just last night I dreamed I died suddenly while driving, and it's just a reminder we all could be gone tomorrow.  So I choose to act now, to tell those I love I love them every chance I get, to make time for those I love every chance I get, because you just never know when you won't have that chance again.  Live life as if it was your last day on earth.

I'm the type of person who keeps his cards close to the vest, but I'm a very smart individual who always plans ten steps ahead of everyone else, I'm not always accurate, but I know how to plan on the fly as well, I stay prepared.  It's why I'm rarely surprised or caught offguard, even when bad things happen to me, I usually have expected it for days in advance and braced for it.  I tend to see things before they happen because I watch for signs and I pick up on subtle hints and actions, and many times I'll play the I didn't notice card on purpose, the truth is you don't have to let everyone know everything.

I choose my moments, and that can be good and bad, but it's how I am.  I love her, I know I love her for life, and I know what I'm willing to give her, everything.  In many ways, she kind of owns me, and quite honestly I'm happy with that.  I was upset Sunday because I didn't get to eat her cooking, I just think she is amazing at cooking, one of the best, and she was cooking one of my favorites I confess, one day I hope she tries to be a chef, because I believe her food is off the charts great, I wish I had the money to put her through culinary school or buy her a restaurant, God knows she deserves to be successful.  I'd break my back, to make sure she was successful in life.

But planning is what keeps me going, it what keeps me positive.  Lord knows I've had to start over so many times, and it's never easy, but you do it because you have to, and you have to survive, and to survive you don't give up.  I'm a white man, and even for us it is hard now, times are hard for all, nobody is just going to give you success, we have to earn it, all of us.  And the sooner we realize in order to move forward we have to let the past be the past and work together for the greater good of all, and not one specific type of person, then the sooner we all can be happy.  As long as we hold on to hate and put it forward, we will never solve anything.  There are good and bad in every type of person and profession, that has always been true at any point of history, don't believe in lies, find the real facts, not myths or legends, but facts you can actually put your hands on.  Think for yourself, but be open to all views.  I will for anyone as long as it's for equality across the board, but fight smart, fighting isn't always violent, learn to outsmart your enemies, as God said defeat them with kindness.

I really want to go to the Gwinnett Fair this week, it's here until the 27th, but can't find anyone to go with, so we'll see, but if anyone is game I'm in.  I love her, I love spending time with her, I love listening to her, I love helping her, I love knowing her, I love loving her, I just really lover her completely, and I'm ready, I really am, I'm ready for this to happen, I'm ready to be happy with her.  It doesn't matter where I'm at in life, I will make this work, I will work my ass off to make sure we're both happy, to me she is worth it.

Change Can Be Scary

Change is scary, taking risks is scary, life is scary, giving your heart to someone completely is scary, we all are scared of these things no matter how tough we act or are.  Nobody truly is fearless when they don't know what is about to happen to them, if they don't what the right choice is.  I am no different, however I can honestly tell you if I'm going to scared, I want to be scared together with the one woman I love.  Yes I love her unconditionally, but reality is neither of us knows what would happen if we put it all on the table and tried between us, I personally believe great things would happen, but you don't know and that is why it is such a huge risk.  It would no doubt change everything about us, good or bad.  But I embrace change, I believe it's better to know for sure, then to live life regretting not trying.  Real love doesn't come often, many never find it, I can honestly what I have for her is real love, and I'm more than ready to embrace that no matter how it changes our lives.

I'm scared, she is scared, and there might even be other's scared about this change as well, but while I'm scared, I real not run away and give up, I face my fear and smile, and say I believe in my love and I believe in her and I believe in us to conquer this fear and make it the greatest success and story either of us will ever know.  So I give you my heart, all of it, I give you my mind, all of it, I give you my body, all of it, I give you my soul, all of it, I give you my future, all of it, and I have no doubt in me that you are the greatest love ever to grace my life.  You don't understand my love and it's strength, and I get it, you don't believe in your heart I could possibly love you like that much, you think your secrets will run me away, you think your attitude would drive me away, but you are wrong.  I love you that much, no matter your history, no matter your attitude, in fact your attitude is actually one of the things I love most about you because while it is strong it makes you better in the long run because it motivates you to be better than anyone else.  I'm completely in love with you, I really am, one day you'll see that.  I'm not going anywhere, if I wasn't completely in love with you for life I would have left long ago, but I didn't and I won't.

There isn't a second where I wouldn't rather be with you, and that is the truth.  Doubt me all you want, but my actions and my words will always show I love you completely and unconditionally, and no matter how scared of change I might be, you make me brave, you make me feel invincible, and if I ever do come to a day I must fall, I will be more than happy if I fall with you by my side.  You either go into love and life all in, or you go home, well I've already gone into my love for you all in, it truly is everything to me.  Change is inevitable, I'm ready to take this change on with you.

Keep On

Never give up on someone you truly love, that is why I can never give up on you.  You are amazing, you just don't know how amazing you truly are.  There will never be another you.  You are all I want and need in life, you truly are.  I know with you there is nothing I can't face and beat.  I believe in you, and I'm always proud of you, I love you.  One day I hope you love me like this too.  Happiness to me is simply, happiness is you.  You are the answer to my prayers every day and night I live.

Greatness

Greatness, let me tell you how to tell if a man is truly great and truly knows how valuable he is.  A great man doesn't love just any woman, a great man isn't drawn in by just looks or sex, a great man isn't drawn in by opportunity or money, a great man never wants the easy way out.  If you want to know if a man truly loves who he is, and is truly looking for life long love, then watch who he gives his heart to, and watch if he gives his heart to multiple women all the time.

I am a great man, and I respect myself enough to only love a great woman.  So if I love you, I believe you are great too.  That goes for my friends as well.  I don't have many friends for a reason, and it is by choice.  I surround myself with great people and great hearts, it doesn't mean I shun everybody else, it just means I only let those I feel are great all the way in.

So this is why I don't give up on the one woman love, this is why I wait, this is why I only want and need her for life.  I know she is great, and I know how valuable she truly is.  It's why you don't see me chasing random women all the time, I'm picky, not picky on looks or money persay, know I'm picky on women who handle themselves right and respect themselves and other's right, and most importantly respect God first. 

I know I'm not in a great position in life right now, but I don't care, things will be great soon.  But I'm ready for us to be great together, all I'm waiting on is you to claim me, and all you have to do is grab me and tell me you're ready to do this together, and my answer will be yes.  But I need to see you take that risky step, that would tell me you truly are ready.  I promise you will get my very best always, because I love you and you're only person I even want to spend my life with.  I already know that, I know you better than you think, and I love you just the same.  We are greatness, and we can be greatness together.

So the next you wonder why I don't give up on you, or why I don't go after other women, remember greatness is rare.  And if I consider you a close friend, then believe me I believe they are greatness as well.  I'm loyal for life, good or bad, I won't abandon you ever.