We never dated, we've never been a couple, we've never taken that next step, yet I had to give you up as if we had. That's kind of why this has always stung me. My best friend pushes me away for something that never happened or hasn't happened yet. I love her, I've always admitted that, but I'm respectful enough to wait for e her to be free to try.
I've been that way, no matter what anyone else thinks my intentions are. Do I want her? Yes. Do I want to be with her? Yes. But I have to wait on her to love me as I love her, in time I trust God to handle that. Had we dated or been a couple or taken that step, I could understand the pushing away, but I don't think punishing me for something that hasn't happened is fair.
Now I lose double, first the woman I love with everything I got is not with me, and now I have to give up my best friend even though nothing happened between us. Doesn't make sense to me, don't see where this is a fair deal for me. I would be willing to risk the friendship if it meant we would take that step and try being a couple. But I'm not willing to give up my best friend for any other reason than that.
I've been that way, no matter what anyone else thinks my intentions are. Do I want her? Yes. Do I want to be with her? Yes. But I have to wait on her to love me as I love her, in time I trust God to handle that. Had we dated or been a couple or taken that step, I could understand the pushing away, but I don't think punishing me for something that hasn't happened is fair.
Now I lose double, first the woman I love with everything I got is not with me, and now I have to give up my best friend even though nothing happened between us. Doesn't make sense to me, don't see where this is a fair deal for me. I would be willing to risk the friendship if it meant we would take that step and try being a couple. But I'm not willing to give up my best friend for any other reason than that.
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