Thursday, July 2, 2015

Time

The things people say and the things people do seem to rarely match up nowadays. People will tell you they want to be happy, but they aren't willing to do anything to help you be happy for example.  This world is all about making yourself happy, but that isn't always possible, many times we need help to be truly happy.  Sure we can all smile anytime we like, we can lie to ourselves and pretend to always be happy, but reality is true happiness comes with the help of others that we love.  I'm not looking for an illusion of happiness, I want and need real happiness.  Why would anyone settle for less?

If say you're going to make time for someone, then do it, don't push it off.  Time is short, and rarely matches up between two busy people to make time for each other.  So don't wait, because before you know it time has slipped away, and its too late, and time may never come again.  If I say I'm going to make time for someone, I always make sure to deliver or at least let them know why I can't.  I believe everyone's time is valuable, and we should all respect that.

If you want someone you care about to be happy, then do things to help them be happy, don't do things you know that'll hurt them and disappoint them and then expect them to be happy, thats just plain crazy.  Sometimes you hurt someone enough, ignore someone enough, then the little pains add up to a great pain, and sometimes people never get past those great pains.

This world is so for the moment, people say "they'll get over it" or "its no big deal", but over time it becomes a big deal, over time the constant pain is something they don't get over.  Its like snowball rolling down a snowy mountain, the pain just gets bigger.  And then people want to say, I don't know what I did so wrong, well you didn't do "one" big thing wrong, you did a million "little" things wrong over and over again until you completely lost someone and destroyed their heart.

I'm not talking about one person at all, the whole world is like this now it seems.  It's all be "me" with people, this world isn't created for one person, it shouldn't be just about "me" with anyone, it's about "us", because in the end we live in this world together no matter what.  God didn't create just "you", look around He created everything, so everything in this world matters.

Destroying another person's dream to achieve your own dream is not right, I don't care how you spin it.  We're suppose to spread kindness and happiness, not by whatever means necessary to get what we want.  I guess I'm tired of being told promises, or people will do things, only to have them not do them, it hurts, especially when it comes from those you love.  

I'm just venting I suppose, but there is truth to what I say.  I try to live life right, I try to treat people right, I try to keep my promises, I try to consider other's feelings, I try to love for the right reasons, but sometimes I wonder if anyone else is trying too.

My heart belongs to one person, and she knows it.  I love her, and I know she hates it when I say this, but I need her, and there is nothing wrong with admitting that when you love someone.  God has a way of moving people and their hearts, God has attached my heart to her, I've long since accepted that, and believe me I fought it for a good while.  But God opened my eyes to her true beauty, which I'm not even sure she realizes what her true beauty is herself.  But I see it, and I think its beautiful.  I'm a sucker for surprises, I plan everything, but when someone I love shows up and spends time with me unannounced, it really let's me know I matter.  Might wreck my plans, but I think its worth it.

I love her, I want to spend my life with her, I want to raise a family with her, travel the world with her, explore life with her, praise God with her, and one day die with her, yes, I love her.

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