In life, the real truth nobody is innocent in any situation, we either cause the incident intentionally or we put ourselves in the incident unintentionally based on decisions we made leading to that point. So in reality there are no true victims in life. I find it interesting when I hear people making excuses for things that happen to them, and when others think they just are playing the victim, but then those same people saying that they're playing the victim fail to claim there part in causing the incident. My point is this, we all are the cause collectively, you can't know what anyone else is going or why they made those choices without walking their path. We all have our reasons, we all have our burdens and doubts, we all make mistakes, not everything we do is intentional.
I for one am harder on myself than most, believe me I know my faults, and I know my part in things, I realize I'm not an innocent victim, but I also realize nobody is either. I realize when they took their actions or lack of actions, I made a choice based on that, and then they made a choice based on my choice, and so on, it's a vicious circle that ultimately we all cause. I don't often talk or write about my flaws because those things I run through my own mind every second of every breathe I take. Just because one doesn't openly say their faults doesn't mean they don't own them, it just means they don't feel the need to share them. Every action in life stems from a another action, and all actions have a counter reaction, that's life.
So I when I vent, I'm venting, I'm not blaming anyone, I'm not playing a victim, I'm simply venting. And what I've learned in life is when most people call someone out on something, they tend to be guilty themselves to some degree. We all see things differently, because we all live different lives and point of views. We all would do well to remember that.
I'm a very thankful person, I have wonderful friends and they know who they are, I make good money and have a steady job, I have my own place, and I have good health. Am I missing some things, yes, like the woman I love, and yes that is the most important thing to me, but just because I may hurt missing that, doesn't mean I'm not thankful for my other blessings. Even though I hurt deeply, I will always remain successful and positive.
I try to see things from all views, and I try to figure things out or why things happen, I never try to blame anyone solely, but I'm to afraid to speak my heart and mind to reveal the truth. The truth always comes out, and it will solve almost anything. People doubt my heart and sincerity, but I'm real, as real as they come. And thats why I get frustrated, I lay my heart out there openly, and people have been so burned by others or this world, that good hearted people like me get doubted all the time. Good people still exist, I promise.
I love her, that will never change. I don't blame her for anything, we both had a hand in this equally. I just feel we're worth the fight, because I know I truly love her, and I feel in my heart deep down she does love me too even if she is afraid to admit it. So for better or worse, I will wait for her and only her, and understand that is my choice, but also understand that is how much I love her that I'm willing to risk waiting forever for her. I'm willing to pay whatever price I must, try me, and you'll see I'm not lying.
I for one am harder on myself than most, believe me I know my faults, and I know my part in things, I realize I'm not an innocent victim, but I also realize nobody is either. I realize when they took their actions or lack of actions, I made a choice based on that, and then they made a choice based on my choice, and so on, it's a vicious circle that ultimately we all cause. I don't often talk or write about my flaws because those things I run through my own mind every second of every breathe I take. Just because one doesn't openly say their faults doesn't mean they don't own them, it just means they don't feel the need to share them. Every action in life stems from a another action, and all actions have a counter reaction, that's life.
So I when I vent, I'm venting, I'm not blaming anyone, I'm not playing a victim, I'm simply venting. And what I've learned in life is when most people call someone out on something, they tend to be guilty themselves to some degree. We all see things differently, because we all live different lives and point of views. We all would do well to remember that.
I'm a very thankful person, I have wonderful friends and they know who they are, I make good money and have a steady job, I have my own place, and I have good health. Am I missing some things, yes, like the woman I love, and yes that is the most important thing to me, but just because I may hurt missing that, doesn't mean I'm not thankful for my other blessings. Even though I hurt deeply, I will always remain successful and positive.
I try to see things from all views, and I try to figure things out or why things happen, I never try to blame anyone solely, but I'm to afraid to speak my heart and mind to reveal the truth. The truth always comes out, and it will solve almost anything. People doubt my heart and sincerity, but I'm real, as real as they come. And thats why I get frustrated, I lay my heart out there openly, and people have been so burned by others or this world, that good hearted people like me get doubted all the time. Good people still exist, I promise.
I love her, that will never change. I don't blame her for anything, we both had a hand in this equally. I just feel we're worth the fight, because I know I truly love her, and I feel in my heart deep down she does love me too even if she is afraid to admit it. So for better or worse, I will wait for her and only her, and understand that is my choice, but also understand that is how much I love her that I'm willing to risk waiting forever for her. I'm willing to pay whatever price I must, try me, and you'll see I'm not lying.
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