Its strange, I think about you all the time, I mean I love you like no other, but today you really were on my mind heavily. I really missed and needed you today. You see, I'm about to take a big step, and it could change a lot of things. Before I start I want you to know, I love you for real, you will always be my number one, and you will always have my heart. My dream will always be to spend my life with you. No matter what happens to you in life, you can never say that you were never truly loved by anyone, because as long I have breathe I love you more than life itself. I am the man who not only was willing but wanted to make your dreams come true and provide for you, but the same man who actually had the means and drive to do just that for life. I am the man who kept his promises to you, I am the man who never gave up on you. I am the man who was willing to let you figure things out and wait and still love you.
All that being said, I want you to know when and if I start dating other people, I will take them seriously and give them a real chance. I won't leave any of them for you, because I won't hurt anyone like that. If we're both single and things happen, then maybe, but if I'm taken then no matter how much I love and want to be with you, I won't leave them for you. Once I'm gone, I'm gone. I don't ever want to lose or leave you, I truly want to spend my life with you, but if you keep pushing me away and someone else takes me in, then you nobody else but yourself to blame, because honestly I've given every chance in the world. Unlike you, who I still feel never gave me a chance to show you how real and true my love is. I know things got complicated, and I know we both messed up, but love isn't perfect, and for love to last you have to move past those screw ups and give each other a real chance to learn from them. I feel you never gave me that chance, that you gave up before we ever got going. You say I never acted, I only texted, but the reason I never went beyond is you kept pushing me away when I tried, you kept finding excuses and reasons why we couldn't.
I might be dating someone soon, it's too early to say, but I'm really interested in this person, and I'm going to attempt to give them the chance. I made mistake in life though, I feel in love with you, and as unfair as it is, when I date this person I'll be comparing them to you and I'm sure at times thinking of you, and thats how it'll be for me forever, because you will always be my true love. I never asked you to keep our friendship a secret, I never asked you to keep anything we did a secret, you chose to do that, not me, I respected your relationships and as hard and painful as it was for me, I always let your relationships play themselves out, I never tried to alter them, yet you pushed me out still.
I love your family, your mother is my closest friend, your daughter is one of the people that makes me smile every time I see her and I love her as if she were my own, even your brothers and stepdad I love like family. I love everything about you, I don't know everything about you, but I know you better than you think.
And you really don't know much about me, like you think you do. Quick quiz:
What's my favorite food? Steak and Crab Legs
What's my favorite color? Dark Blue
Where was I born? Kissimmee, Florida
Where did I go to high school? Shiloh
How old am I? 34
When is my birthday? September 21
What's my favorite number? 14
Look, thats just stupid basic questions, and I'm willing to bet you couldn't answer more than two of them without seeing the answers. I've always wanted to let you in, and I've always wanted to more about you, you just have a way of making that hard on me when I try. I never blamed, I never blamed anyone else, I haven't even blamed myself for why we ended up this way. The thing is we all had a part to play. I still love you, and we still have a chance if you act soon, but once I'm taken, then I'm taken. I'll never be truly happy with anyone else, I'll be happy but not truly happy, because the truth is I'll also dream of being with you.
I can be successful with or without you, and I will be, I just prefer it be with you so I can be happy and successful. So if things don't work out for you like you think they will, I can't guarantee I'll still be available, so think about it, this is the risk you take. Love, no matter how true or strong, can missed and never recovered if you wait too long.
If I could run the world, believe me you would have everything and anything you need, I would see to it you were happy and free of all burdens. I would gladly grant your every wish and dream is a second. I love you.
All that being said, I want you to know when and if I start dating other people, I will take them seriously and give them a real chance. I won't leave any of them for you, because I won't hurt anyone like that. If we're both single and things happen, then maybe, but if I'm taken then no matter how much I love and want to be with you, I won't leave them for you. Once I'm gone, I'm gone. I don't ever want to lose or leave you, I truly want to spend my life with you, but if you keep pushing me away and someone else takes me in, then you nobody else but yourself to blame, because honestly I've given every chance in the world. Unlike you, who I still feel never gave me a chance to show you how real and true my love is. I know things got complicated, and I know we both messed up, but love isn't perfect, and for love to last you have to move past those screw ups and give each other a real chance to learn from them. I feel you never gave me that chance, that you gave up before we ever got going. You say I never acted, I only texted, but the reason I never went beyond is you kept pushing me away when I tried, you kept finding excuses and reasons why we couldn't.
I might be dating someone soon, it's too early to say, but I'm really interested in this person, and I'm going to attempt to give them the chance. I made mistake in life though, I feel in love with you, and as unfair as it is, when I date this person I'll be comparing them to you and I'm sure at times thinking of you, and thats how it'll be for me forever, because you will always be my true love. I never asked you to keep our friendship a secret, I never asked you to keep anything we did a secret, you chose to do that, not me, I respected your relationships and as hard and painful as it was for me, I always let your relationships play themselves out, I never tried to alter them, yet you pushed me out still.
I love your family, your mother is my closest friend, your daughter is one of the people that makes me smile every time I see her and I love her as if she were my own, even your brothers and stepdad I love like family. I love everything about you, I don't know everything about you, but I know you better than you think.
And you really don't know much about me, like you think you do. Quick quiz:
What's my favorite food? Steak and Crab Legs
What's my favorite color? Dark Blue
Where was I born? Kissimmee, Florida
Where did I go to high school? Shiloh
How old am I? 34
When is my birthday? September 21
What's my favorite number? 14
Look, thats just stupid basic questions, and I'm willing to bet you couldn't answer more than two of them without seeing the answers. I've always wanted to let you in, and I've always wanted to more about you, you just have a way of making that hard on me when I try. I never blamed, I never blamed anyone else, I haven't even blamed myself for why we ended up this way. The thing is we all had a part to play. I still love you, and we still have a chance if you act soon, but once I'm taken, then I'm taken. I'll never be truly happy with anyone else, I'll be happy but not truly happy, because the truth is I'll also dream of being with you.
I can be successful with or without you, and I will be, I just prefer it be with you so I can be happy and successful. So if things don't work out for you like you think they will, I can't guarantee I'll still be available, so think about it, this is the risk you take. Love, no matter how true or strong, can missed and never recovered if you wait too long.
If I could run the world, believe me you would have everything and anything you need, I would see to it you were happy and free of all burdens. I would gladly grant your every wish and dream is a second. I love you.
No comments:
Post a Comment