I know this is not what you want to hear, and believe me when I say I don't want to say it, but sometimes the truth needs to be said. I love her, and respect her, and none of this is meant to make her mad or look bad, because truth be told I was just like her a few years back, and even I had to learn the hard way, but what she doesn't realize that I had to learn the hard way, is if you're too stubborn and deadset of proving yourself right, when you find out you were wrong it's too late to go back claim what you had.
She is stubborn, she truly believes what she feels and thinks is right, and nobody can tell her otherwise until reality happens. At this point, she might not listen to God himself if He told her she was making a mistake, and it's not that she does it on purpose, she has just convinced herself she is right, and the voices in her head reassure her. The drive to prove this is overwhelming her, the desire to make it true and prove everyone wrong overtakes her. We are human, and truthfully we've all been through this delusion.
As much as I want to save her, and prevent the pain this leads to in the end, I can't if she won't let me, nobody can if she doesn't let them. I'm not a fortune teller, so I can't read the future, only God knows, but God allows us free will, so He won't stop us from making mistakes, He will only try to guide us and heal us when we do. It breaks my heart so much knowing she might be hurting.
But sometimes we have to learn that chasing certain things in life are meaningless as they fade quickly, and do more damage than good to us. Chasing these things and falling teach us what we should really chase after and what really lasts forever. I have to step back, maybe even ignore so she can understand how valuable my love is to her. And that will be so hard on me. I'll have to let her decisions play out, let life happen, let her stubbornness play out, I'll pray her always, I know God will protect her. But reality is, if she waits to long to figure things out, it might be too late for us. She thinks I'll be an option for her forever, she is wrong. I want to wait for her a lifetime, but I can't in reality.
I know she doesn't want to be tied down, she is an Aquarius, but having someone who loves her enough to give you all they have and more, is not being tied down. She is still free, she is just flying free with a safety net of love below. Just because she is my world, doesn't mean she can't live her dreams, because when she is my world her dreams are my dreams too. I don't want to change her or control her, no, I just want to see her grow and succeed. I'm happiest with her, and while I can be happy without her, I'll never be the happiest I can be without her.
God, please protect her, and don't let her fall too hard, she doesn't know what she does. Whether things play out for us or not, I love her, and God if needed take blessings from me and give to her. My stubbornness once destroyed everything I loved in life, please don't let that happen to her. God, she is worth Your time and effort to build, and even if you have to take years off my life to help her, so be it. My love is never ending, my love is unconditional, my love is real, my love is for the right reasons, my love is for her. A Virgo wants protect the one he loves, a Virgo can lead and support, a Virgo always has everyone's best interests in mind, and I'm without a doubt a Virgo. God you brought me in this world as a Virgo for a reason, so let me give all the love and blessings I have to her.
And to her I say, I love you, respect you, believe in you completely, and one day I hope you truly will understand that and realize what that really means.
She is stubborn, she truly believes what she feels and thinks is right, and nobody can tell her otherwise until reality happens. At this point, she might not listen to God himself if He told her she was making a mistake, and it's not that she does it on purpose, she has just convinced herself she is right, and the voices in her head reassure her. The drive to prove this is overwhelming her, the desire to make it true and prove everyone wrong overtakes her. We are human, and truthfully we've all been through this delusion.
As much as I want to save her, and prevent the pain this leads to in the end, I can't if she won't let me, nobody can if she doesn't let them. I'm not a fortune teller, so I can't read the future, only God knows, but God allows us free will, so He won't stop us from making mistakes, He will only try to guide us and heal us when we do. It breaks my heart so much knowing she might be hurting.
But sometimes we have to learn that chasing certain things in life are meaningless as they fade quickly, and do more damage than good to us. Chasing these things and falling teach us what we should really chase after and what really lasts forever. I have to step back, maybe even ignore so she can understand how valuable my love is to her. And that will be so hard on me. I'll have to let her decisions play out, let life happen, let her stubbornness play out, I'll pray her always, I know God will protect her. But reality is, if she waits to long to figure things out, it might be too late for us. She thinks I'll be an option for her forever, she is wrong. I want to wait for her a lifetime, but I can't in reality.
I know she doesn't want to be tied down, she is an Aquarius, but having someone who loves her enough to give you all they have and more, is not being tied down. She is still free, she is just flying free with a safety net of love below. Just because she is my world, doesn't mean she can't live her dreams, because when she is my world her dreams are my dreams too. I don't want to change her or control her, no, I just want to see her grow and succeed. I'm happiest with her, and while I can be happy without her, I'll never be the happiest I can be without her.
God, please protect her, and don't let her fall too hard, she doesn't know what she does. Whether things play out for us or not, I love her, and God if needed take blessings from me and give to her. My stubbornness once destroyed everything I loved in life, please don't let that happen to her. God, she is worth Your time and effort to build, and even if you have to take years off my life to help her, so be it. My love is never ending, my love is unconditional, my love is real, my love is for the right reasons, my love is for her. A Virgo wants protect the one he loves, a Virgo can lead and support, a Virgo always has everyone's best interests in mind, and I'm without a doubt a Virgo. God you brought me in this world as a Virgo for a reason, so let me give all the love and blessings I have to her.
And to her I say, I love you, respect you, believe in you completely, and one day I hope you truly will understand that and realize what that really means.
No comments:
Post a Comment