I've been trying to play like I'm ok, play the tough and calm cookie persay. I've been trying to show it doesn't bother me anymore, or it doesn't hurt. I've been try to keep myself from you on purpose to show you how helpful I was to you, and how much you I was doing for you. The truth is, I probably shouldn't of helped you when I did recently, but it isn't in me to punish the one I love when I know I can truly help them. My armor is starting to fade....
I still love you, I miss you, I want you, I need you, and unfortunately that will never change because my love for you is real. Thats why it hurts so much, but the thing is I can't let you know that now, it wouldn't be right. Somehow, someway I need you to miss me enough to pull me back, I need you to love me back, so I have to keep pretending I'm happy without you.
Truthfully, my life is blossoming, I got another big raise coming, my role is increasing at work to the point my voice is heard and in some cases respected. I've finally got myself in the position I needed to be to make things happen. Slow and steady always wins in the end. God is good, I know how to play my cards right and get the most out of what I have. I don't overspend, but I don't cheat myself either, I spend smart and wise. For example I could afford to get a nice car now, but why? It'd just be another payment I don't need, my current car is paid off. I don't have to show I got money by spending more, to me thats wreckless, I'd much rather pay my bills or save it for emergencies or best case a trip. Its simpl really be smart with what God blesses you with and He'll reward you, be wreckless and He'll put you through some trials to teach you.
I miss you, I dream of you, but now is not the time to tell you no matter how much I want to. I know I can make this world we live in your's, but I need you to want that from me.
I still love you, I miss you, I want you, I need you, and unfortunately that will never change because my love for you is real. Thats why it hurts so much, but the thing is I can't let you know that now, it wouldn't be right. Somehow, someway I need you to miss me enough to pull me back, I need you to love me back, so I have to keep pretending I'm happy without you.
Truthfully, my life is blossoming, I got another big raise coming, my role is increasing at work to the point my voice is heard and in some cases respected. I've finally got myself in the position I needed to be to make things happen. Slow and steady always wins in the end. God is good, I know how to play my cards right and get the most out of what I have. I don't overspend, but I don't cheat myself either, I spend smart and wise. For example I could afford to get a nice car now, but why? It'd just be another payment I don't need, my current car is paid off. I don't have to show I got money by spending more, to me thats wreckless, I'd much rather pay my bills or save it for emergencies or best case a trip. Its simpl really be smart with what God blesses you with and He'll reward you, be wreckless and He'll put you through some trials to teach you.
I miss you, I dream of you, but now is not the time to tell you no matter how much I want to. I know I can make this world we live in your's, but I need you to want that from me.
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