Why is it everyone wants to pretend they know what will make you happy or what is best for you when they don't even understand who you are and what you feel. It baffles me how people will say move on, when they have no idea what you feel. I've never seen a world so quick to give up and move on to something different without even considering they might not ever find anything better than what they left behind. In life, anything truly worth it is worth fighting for until you can no longer fight, people tell you to give up not because it is best for you but because it is easier for them. The same people you say do for yourself first will be the first to tell you to move on so they have it easier. Walking away and giving up or moving on are not solutions, they are cop outs.
So I will say this, and I have never been more serious, this is not a joke. I love her, this is my final chapter no matter what, I love her that much, and I don't ask you to understand that, I just ask you to realize that is how deeply I love her. I will die before I move on, no joke. Telling me to let go is the biggest insult to me you can give, because it means you have no respect for who I am or for my own happiness. How would you feel if I told you to move on from what means the most to you in life, even though you knew in your heart that moving on was the worst thing you can do. Stop trying to pull us apart, that is the worst thing you can do if you truly care about me. I am who I am, I am the friend who tries too hard, but understand I try too hard in everything I do in life because I don't believe you should do anything half way, I believe in giving your best in everything you do. I try too hard at work, I try too hard at life, I try too hard at love, I try too hard with friends, but I wouldn't have it any other way, because trying too hard is the same thing as having a truly giving heart. It can be said Jesus tried too hard, He gave his life to those who turned Him away, and He did so out of love. God never once said do for yourself first, not once, that is a man made rule.
Everything I do in life I do out of respect and love. I always try to put myself in the other person's shoe before I act. Nobody likes to be forgotten, so I always remember to make time for friends and say I love them. Nobody wants to be a burden, so I always welcome people with a smile. Nobody wants to feel ignored, so I always open myself to them. You need to stop looking at my love as clingy, and start realizing that maybe my love is real. Think about it, after all we've been through, after all the struggle and hurt I survived, after everything good and bad we've made it through, not one time did I ever stop loving her. So when you move on, your asking someone who has been more loyal to her than anyone else ever has to basically end their life and happiness forever. Why is it so hard for you to grasp I don't want any other love, why do you refuse to let me be happy. Why is everything good I do automatically interpreted as sexual motivated? I did everything I do know even before I ever loved you? I didn't change one bit, what changed is how you chose to receive it. In many ways you create the problems between us this way. All I've ever asked is to be accepted for who I am, just as I have always accepted you for who you are.
Sometimes the next chapter isn't better, sometimes the next chapter is the end. Grass is rarely greener on the other side. People rarely realize the impact their actions and words can have despite the old saying words can kill and destroy lives forever. If you love someone than show it, it truly is that simple. It never makes sense to me how people push away those who love them completely. It just doesn't. I want to look in your heart and think about what you are doing and saying, and then I want you to feel in your heart how you crushing my will live and what you are putting me through for your own selfish desires, think before you speak. Is loving you so completely really a bad thing for you. I've always said race, looks, sex, size or anything like that doesn't matter, it is a person's heart that is the true sign of who they are and how much they love you. When a person's heart completely loves you, it has a way of finding ways to create money, dreams and success. I never have or will stop loving you, treat me like I don't exist all you want, but I still love, put a bullet in my heart, and my dying words will be I love you, my point is my love is completely real and will never die. Stop trying to kill my love, stop trying to kill who I am, stop trying to kill me, because how can you say you love me and care about me in any way if you keep trying to destroy what I love most and makes me happiest in life.
So I will say this, and I have never been more serious, this is not a joke. I love her, this is my final chapter no matter what, I love her that much, and I don't ask you to understand that, I just ask you to realize that is how deeply I love her. I will die before I move on, no joke. Telling me to let go is the biggest insult to me you can give, because it means you have no respect for who I am or for my own happiness. How would you feel if I told you to move on from what means the most to you in life, even though you knew in your heart that moving on was the worst thing you can do. Stop trying to pull us apart, that is the worst thing you can do if you truly care about me. I am who I am, I am the friend who tries too hard, but understand I try too hard in everything I do in life because I don't believe you should do anything half way, I believe in giving your best in everything you do. I try too hard at work, I try too hard at life, I try too hard at love, I try too hard with friends, but I wouldn't have it any other way, because trying too hard is the same thing as having a truly giving heart. It can be said Jesus tried too hard, He gave his life to those who turned Him away, and He did so out of love. God never once said do for yourself first, not once, that is a man made rule.
Everything I do in life I do out of respect and love. I always try to put myself in the other person's shoe before I act. Nobody likes to be forgotten, so I always remember to make time for friends and say I love them. Nobody wants to be a burden, so I always welcome people with a smile. Nobody wants to feel ignored, so I always open myself to them. You need to stop looking at my love as clingy, and start realizing that maybe my love is real. Think about it, after all we've been through, after all the struggle and hurt I survived, after everything good and bad we've made it through, not one time did I ever stop loving her. So when you move on, your asking someone who has been more loyal to her than anyone else ever has to basically end their life and happiness forever. Why is it so hard for you to grasp I don't want any other love, why do you refuse to let me be happy. Why is everything good I do automatically interpreted as sexual motivated? I did everything I do know even before I ever loved you? I didn't change one bit, what changed is how you chose to receive it. In many ways you create the problems between us this way. All I've ever asked is to be accepted for who I am, just as I have always accepted you for who you are.
Sometimes the next chapter isn't better, sometimes the next chapter is the end. Grass is rarely greener on the other side. People rarely realize the impact their actions and words can have despite the old saying words can kill and destroy lives forever. If you love someone than show it, it truly is that simple. It never makes sense to me how people push away those who love them completely. It just doesn't. I want to look in your heart and think about what you are doing and saying, and then I want you to feel in your heart how you crushing my will live and what you are putting me through for your own selfish desires, think before you speak. Is loving you so completely really a bad thing for you. I've always said race, looks, sex, size or anything like that doesn't matter, it is a person's heart that is the true sign of who they are and how much they love you. When a person's heart completely loves you, it has a way of finding ways to create money, dreams and success. I never have or will stop loving you, treat me like I don't exist all you want, but I still love, put a bullet in my heart, and my dying words will be I love you, my point is my love is completely real and will never die. Stop trying to kill my love, stop trying to kill who I am, stop trying to kill me, because how can you say you love me and care about me in any way if you keep trying to destroy what I love most and makes me happiest in life.
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