There are times I wonder if people understand what they truly are asking of me, or if they truly know what they want from me. I do everything in my power to do the right thing, act the right way, and be the best person for those I love, and many times I feel people just overlook that because they just want me to be what makes things easier for them only.
Look, I'm not blaming anyone for anything, I'm not accusing anyone of anything, I'm simply making a broad statement from a point of view I know we've all had at one time or another. Bottom line is this, I love her, that will never change in me, no matter who ignores me or attacks me or pushes me away, I will always love her more than life itself. I know in my heart if given the chance by her, I can love her more than any other man out there, I know this. I will even go as far as to say I know I am willing to do things for her that no other man will. I'm not afraid to put everything I have including my future and life on the line for her and her dreams. I not afraid to place my very existence in her hands and relinquishes all control to her if needed. Most men would never completely give themselves up to anyone, I'm not most men, I'm strong enough to know if I love someone completely, then I will trust them completely all the way until my death. Many say this, I live this.
I sometimes wonder what she really expects from me. I love her completely, and she knows it. Deep down she loves me, and she knows it, even if she tries to hide it. Yet I'm willing to hold my love back and be her friend because I want her to be happy, and I respect her, I choose to never openly overstep as long as there is someone else no matter how I feel. She and I have never been an item, as far as I know we've never even dated, I don't think we ever got to that point because had we I would have acted differently. And sometimes I feel in her eyes she thinks we dated, but in my eyes we never did. I always thought we went out as friends, if I thought we were dating I would have made more moves in certain areas. And that's my problem, in my eyes we never gave our love a real chance, and in my heart there is no greater love than my love for her. She can't expect me to stop loving her and still be happy, the type of love I have for her is far to real for that. It's hard enough on me to do right and hold back and be the friend I know I want and need to be for her, but asking me to forget I love her is way too much to expect.
I keep our talks casual on purposes, I make sure I include her in every decision between us because I don't want her uncomfortable. I take every precaution I can to make sure I show her respect. And yet, somehow she still pushes me away and ignores me. I love her, I never want her to fail, I never want her to do without, and yes my dream is to be her husband, but that being said, I would never force her into that. When will she understand if I can't have her as my love, I need her right now as my close friend. I could understand if I was trying to get with her openly and grabbing her and such, but I don't, in fact I do the opposite. I even hold my compliments on how beautiful she is, because heaven forbid someone take it the wrong way and go crazy.
What happened to simply kindness among friends, when did people start reading so much into every little thing said? I'll be blunt, I need her in my life, she balances me whether it is as my love or my friend. And I will always protect her and be there for her no matter what, and if needed I will make sure she is treated right by anyone around. Just because I love her and it is my dream to be with her, doesn't mean I would hurt her to make that happen. I'm not that kind of man, I believe God let's things happen and true love finds a way. And I truly love her, and I believe God knows that. There is not a bone in my body that doubts my love for her.
Don't hate me because I love you, and before you say you don't, think about it, you push away things that you don't like. So when you push me away or ignore me knowing how much you mean to me, that is the message you send. Anyone that loves you, should love you and anyone else in your life that truly has your back. I would never try to divide you from anyone who is there for you no matter what, because I love seeing you happy. Jealousy is what makes people pull you away from those you love, jealousy is caused by insecurity and lack of trust in those they love, jealousy comes when someone realizes they can't give what someone else is willing to. I'm not jealous of anyone, all I ask is to be able to freely spend time and talk to the one love, even if its as a friend. She and I both know me very well, she knows I would never try to be with her unless she was single, and she knows I will always let her relationships play out no matter what, and she knows I will always love her and wait for her.
I'm one of the few guys alive who has not been corrupted by today's world. I don't see anyone as property, especially the one I love, I respect all, and I see us all as equals, and when I love someone completely, I am loyal to them forever, and they are my only love. I know this won't sound right, but I would rather die, than face life not being able to spend time with her and talk with her in any way. Sometimes good people say they're a friend and truly understand they are only a friend right now, and while they may confess they want more and love more, they understand where life is at right now. I don't know what the future holds, people die and are born every day, life changes constantly. Relationships die and start, divorces and marriages happen constantly, everything changes. So who knows, 5, 10, 20 years could pass, and I would still love her and want to be with her for life.
If the one reason you hate me is because I love her, then I'm proud to know you hate me, because I'm proud to love her. She never gave me the chance to show her, and be her's, but if she ever does I promise I will be the only man and last man she will ever need to be happy forever. I ask myself do I love her enough to give her everything I have, everything I am, am I willing to allow myself to be her's, and my answer is yes. And I have always shown her that, if she thinks back, she will realize I have always put her first in my life, and I have never let her down. I'm willing no other man is willing to completely give himself up to her like this. God loved this world so much, that he gave Himself up completely for us, and He allowed Himself to become our's. That is pure love, giving yourself up, and that is how I love her. Loving yourself first isn't true love, you have to learn to love who you love before yourself or things will never be completely at peace. Because if you put them first, and they put you first, than you're both covered completely. Love isn't about doing for yourself, love is about giving yourself.
One day I know things will play out, people will show there true colors, I know. What is unfortunate people will get hurt I know. But the thing is I've already shown my true colors because I don't hide them, my colors are my love for her, and this color will never die. She isn't just a woman to me, she isn't just a love, she isn't just a sexy body, she is everything worth living for to me. I don't know why I must struggle like I do in life like this, why God allows me to love her and not be with her, but He placed this love in me, and He has not removed it at all, so I know in His plan somehow this will find a way and all this struggle for me will be worth it. I love her, and you can hurt me, make me sad, ignore me, attack me or whatever, but you'll never stop me from loving her unless you kill me. All I would ask her to do is step back, and think about how loyal I have been to her, and think about what I've been through with her and how I still love her, and think is there anyone else out there who would have stuck with her like this as I have. Now think, isn't my love worth a chance.
Look, I'm not blaming anyone for anything, I'm not accusing anyone of anything, I'm simply making a broad statement from a point of view I know we've all had at one time or another. Bottom line is this, I love her, that will never change in me, no matter who ignores me or attacks me or pushes me away, I will always love her more than life itself. I know in my heart if given the chance by her, I can love her more than any other man out there, I know this. I will even go as far as to say I know I am willing to do things for her that no other man will. I'm not afraid to put everything I have including my future and life on the line for her and her dreams. I not afraid to place my very existence in her hands and relinquishes all control to her if needed. Most men would never completely give themselves up to anyone, I'm not most men, I'm strong enough to know if I love someone completely, then I will trust them completely all the way until my death. Many say this, I live this.
I sometimes wonder what she really expects from me. I love her completely, and she knows it. Deep down she loves me, and she knows it, even if she tries to hide it. Yet I'm willing to hold my love back and be her friend because I want her to be happy, and I respect her, I choose to never openly overstep as long as there is someone else no matter how I feel. She and I have never been an item, as far as I know we've never even dated, I don't think we ever got to that point because had we I would have acted differently. And sometimes I feel in her eyes she thinks we dated, but in my eyes we never did. I always thought we went out as friends, if I thought we were dating I would have made more moves in certain areas. And that's my problem, in my eyes we never gave our love a real chance, and in my heart there is no greater love than my love for her. She can't expect me to stop loving her and still be happy, the type of love I have for her is far to real for that. It's hard enough on me to do right and hold back and be the friend I know I want and need to be for her, but asking me to forget I love her is way too much to expect.
I keep our talks casual on purposes, I make sure I include her in every decision between us because I don't want her uncomfortable. I take every precaution I can to make sure I show her respect. And yet, somehow she still pushes me away and ignores me. I love her, I never want her to fail, I never want her to do without, and yes my dream is to be her husband, but that being said, I would never force her into that. When will she understand if I can't have her as my love, I need her right now as my close friend. I could understand if I was trying to get with her openly and grabbing her and such, but I don't, in fact I do the opposite. I even hold my compliments on how beautiful she is, because heaven forbid someone take it the wrong way and go crazy.
What happened to simply kindness among friends, when did people start reading so much into every little thing said? I'll be blunt, I need her in my life, she balances me whether it is as my love or my friend. And I will always protect her and be there for her no matter what, and if needed I will make sure she is treated right by anyone around. Just because I love her and it is my dream to be with her, doesn't mean I would hurt her to make that happen. I'm not that kind of man, I believe God let's things happen and true love finds a way. And I truly love her, and I believe God knows that. There is not a bone in my body that doubts my love for her.
Don't hate me because I love you, and before you say you don't, think about it, you push away things that you don't like. So when you push me away or ignore me knowing how much you mean to me, that is the message you send. Anyone that loves you, should love you and anyone else in your life that truly has your back. I would never try to divide you from anyone who is there for you no matter what, because I love seeing you happy. Jealousy is what makes people pull you away from those you love, jealousy is caused by insecurity and lack of trust in those they love, jealousy comes when someone realizes they can't give what someone else is willing to. I'm not jealous of anyone, all I ask is to be able to freely spend time and talk to the one love, even if its as a friend. She and I both know me very well, she knows I would never try to be with her unless she was single, and she knows I will always let her relationships play out no matter what, and she knows I will always love her and wait for her.
I'm one of the few guys alive who has not been corrupted by today's world. I don't see anyone as property, especially the one I love, I respect all, and I see us all as equals, and when I love someone completely, I am loyal to them forever, and they are my only love. I know this won't sound right, but I would rather die, than face life not being able to spend time with her and talk with her in any way. Sometimes good people say they're a friend and truly understand they are only a friend right now, and while they may confess they want more and love more, they understand where life is at right now. I don't know what the future holds, people die and are born every day, life changes constantly. Relationships die and start, divorces and marriages happen constantly, everything changes. So who knows, 5, 10, 20 years could pass, and I would still love her and want to be with her for life.
If the one reason you hate me is because I love her, then I'm proud to know you hate me, because I'm proud to love her. She never gave me the chance to show her, and be her's, but if she ever does I promise I will be the only man and last man she will ever need to be happy forever. I ask myself do I love her enough to give her everything I have, everything I am, am I willing to allow myself to be her's, and my answer is yes. And I have always shown her that, if she thinks back, she will realize I have always put her first in my life, and I have never let her down. I'm willing no other man is willing to completely give himself up to her like this. God loved this world so much, that he gave Himself up completely for us, and He allowed Himself to become our's. That is pure love, giving yourself up, and that is how I love her. Loving yourself first isn't true love, you have to learn to love who you love before yourself or things will never be completely at peace. Because if you put them first, and they put you first, than you're both covered completely. Love isn't about doing for yourself, love is about giving yourself.
One day I know things will play out, people will show there true colors, I know. What is unfortunate people will get hurt I know. But the thing is I've already shown my true colors because I don't hide them, my colors are my love for her, and this color will never die. She isn't just a woman to me, she isn't just a love, she isn't just a sexy body, she is everything worth living for to me. I don't know why I must struggle like I do in life like this, why God allows me to love her and not be with her, but He placed this love in me, and He has not removed it at all, so I know in His plan somehow this will find a way and all this struggle for me will be worth it. I love her, and you can hurt me, make me sad, ignore me, attack me or whatever, but you'll never stop me from loving her unless you kill me. All I would ask her to do is step back, and think about how loyal I have been to her, and think about what I've been through with her and how I still love her, and think is there anyone else out there who would have stuck with her like this as I have. Now think, isn't my love worth a chance.
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