It's been a strange last few days to say the least, certain things happening or not happening that make me wonder or confused. But over time with her I've learned never read too much into anything or silence, because with her, she just sometimes keeps to yourself for a few days for her own reasons, and I've learned to accept that and let her have that and not worry about it. Because deep down I know she loves me and will get to me when she is ready, I just have to be a patient man and friend.
Its tough, because I like to talk to her a lot, and its hard for me to step back sometimes because I get addicted to how she makes me so happy. I truly love her and being with her, it truly is happiness on earth. Sometimes people get scared when you think so highly of them, they're afraid they can't live up to it, but in my eyes she already does and more, I know she isn't perfect and I know she will have bad moments, but to me she will always be high up in my eyes. People will disappoint you always, but you can either be upset with it or realize they're human too and work with them to improve it. I choose to realize she is human and try to make it better.
There is a reason I write things here and don't say them in public to her, I do so because I try not to cause problems and at the same time I can vent a bit. What people do with information and such is beyond my control. And that is the simple truth. I fight for peace, I fight for equality, I fight for everyone, that is the only way to true peace, and trust me it is far from easy to do. Fighting for right without hate in you is incredibly hard yet amazingly noble. These last few times I've seen her have brought me happiness, and all we do is small talk, yes I would love to have some real deep conversations, but any time with her is amazing to me. I hear all the time men complaining their is asking for too much and is never happy, but I say to all men, if you love her than you should be willing to give her all of you and everything without resentment, if you're going to love for life, then at least go all in.
Its tough, because I like to talk to her a lot, and its hard for me to step back sometimes because I get addicted to how she makes me so happy. I truly love her and being with her, it truly is happiness on earth. Sometimes people get scared when you think so highly of them, they're afraid they can't live up to it, but in my eyes she already does and more, I know she isn't perfect and I know she will have bad moments, but to me she will always be high up in my eyes. People will disappoint you always, but you can either be upset with it or realize they're human too and work with them to improve it. I choose to realize she is human and try to make it better.
There is a reason I write things here and don't say them in public to her, I do so because I try not to cause problems and at the same time I can vent a bit. What people do with information and such is beyond my control. And that is the simple truth. I fight for peace, I fight for equality, I fight for everyone, that is the only way to true peace, and trust me it is far from easy to do. Fighting for right without hate in you is incredibly hard yet amazingly noble. These last few times I've seen her have brought me happiness, and all we do is small talk, yes I would love to have some real deep conversations, but any time with her is amazing to me. I hear all the time men complaining their is asking for too much and is never happy, but I say to all men, if you love her than you should be willing to give her all of you and everything without resentment, if you're going to love for life, then at least go all in.
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