It has been a struggle the last couple of months in my life, I have a lot of things going on in my life that honestly I don't know what is going to happen. I have a lot of problems in my life where I don't know where the solution quite is, yet I trust in God, and honestly I'm not really worried about myself, my worries lie with my friends problems.
Here I am, looking for work, not knowing where money is going to come from long term yet, knowing I could be homeless soon, knowing I face uncertainty, and in doesn't faze me. I'm more worried about my friend's health, and thinking of ways I can help her and be there for her. I'm more worried about the woman I love, and thinking of ways to help her find work or ways for me to help get her some money to get by. I would rather do without things myself than see them suffer, and that is simply who I am. I could say screw them, I got my own problems to deal with, but I won't, because I love them, and no matter what anyone thinks of me, their happiness and safety means more to me than I mean to myself. I get criticized all the time for this, but I've always put those I love first, before myself, and the funny thing is God has also provided for me as a result. The trick is, to do it honestly and without expecting anything in return.
I know the one I love is struggling, and truthfully I understand her pain more than she knows. She is scared, she has a daughter to provide for, and all she wants is a chance to prove to can do it, she is questioning herself at times, but she is smart and she stays faithful in her belief in God, as she should. I want her to understand something, and this is the truth coming from my heart. Even now, as she struggles to find her way, I believe in her, I love her, I believe she is amazing, strong, beautiful, smart, hard working, dedicated, faithful, savvy, and so many more great things. I don't just believe in her when she is on top, I actually believe in her more when she is fighting to get back up, it is these moments she needs people to believe in her the most. When I see her, I don't see weakness, I don't see failure, I see a strong and proud woman not settling for failure, but fighting to achieve what she knows she can achieve, and she will always have my love and support.
I'm not going to give her snide comments about her situation or whatever, because I know her struggle, and I know she is trying her very best, and I believe strongly in her. This is love, when you love someone completely, circumstances don't matter, because you love them. I just want to grab her, and hold her tight, and magically make all her problems disappear, even if I have to take them upon myself to relieve her, I would do it. She is my world, better or worse, I love her, I believe in her, and I want to give her the best and she her attain the best. Just as I will never give up on her, I want her to understand she should never give up on herself.
Even if he entire world gives up on her, I refuse to give up on her. I am her rock, I am her shoulder, I am her shield and sword, I am whatever she needs me to be, and deep down she knows everything I say about my love for her is true. Baby, never look down on yourself, always look up, you are the very best and you will be successful, this I promise on my very life and soul. Dry your tears, clear your doubts, as long as I live you are never in any battle or struggle alone. I still see the woman I love stronger than ever. You simply are amazing, I TRULY LOVE YOU! And that is as real as it gets.
I will never walk away and leave the one I love hurting or struggling. I'm a humble man, who casts his pride aside, and will gladly go where ever necessary to pick her up, even at the cost of my life. When God made me and my heart, He made my heart the real deal. Love isn't visible, love is that invisible connection between two people that nothing and nobody can ever destroy.
Here I am, looking for work, not knowing where money is going to come from long term yet, knowing I could be homeless soon, knowing I face uncertainty, and in doesn't faze me. I'm more worried about my friend's health, and thinking of ways I can help her and be there for her. I'm more worried about the woman I love, and thinking of ways to help her find work or ways for me to help get her some money to get by. I would rather do without things myself than see them suffer, and that is simply who I am. I could say screw them, I got my own problems to deal with, but I won't, because I love them, and no matter what anyone thinks of me, their happiness and safety means more to me than I mean to myself. I get criticized all the time for this, but I've always put those I love first, before myself, and the funny thing is God has also provided for me as a result. The trick is, to do it honestly and without expecting anything in return.
I know the one I love is struggling, and truthfully I understand her pain more than she knows. She is scared, she has a daughter to provide for, and all she wants is a chance to prove to can do it, she is questioning herself at times, but she is smart and she stays faithful in her belief in God, as she should. I want her to understand something, and this is the truth coming from my heart. Even now, as she struggles to find her way, I believe in her, I love her, I believe she is amazing, strong, beautiful, smart, hard working, dedicated, faithful, savvy, and so many more great things. I don't just believe in her when she is on top, I actually believe in her more when she is fighting to get back up, it is these moments she needs people to believe in her the most. When I see her, I don't see weakness, I don't see failure, I see a strong and proud woman not settling for failure, but fighting to achieve what she knows she can achieve, and she will always have my love and support.
I'm not going to give her snide comments about her situation or whatever, because I know her struggle, and I know she is trying her very best, and I believe strongly in her. This is love, when you love someone completely, circumstances don't matter, because you love them. I just want to grab her, and hold her tight, and magically make all her problems disappear, even if I have to take them upon myself to relieve her, I would do it. She is my world, better or worse, I love her, I believe in her, and I want to give her the best and she her attain the best. Just as I will never give up on her, I want her to understand she should never give up on herself.
Even if he entire world gives up on her, I refuse to give up on her. I am her rock, I am her shoulder, I am her shield and sword, I am whatever she needs me to be, and deep down she knows everything I say about my love for her is true. Baby, never look down on yourself, always look up, you are the very best and you will be successful, this I promise on my very life and soul. Dry your tears, clear your doubts, as long as I live you are never in any battle or struggle alone. I still see the woman I love stronger than ever. You simply are amazing, I TRULY LOVE YOU! And that is as real as it gets.
I will never walk away and leave the one I love hurting or struggling. I'm a humble man, who casts his pride aside, and will gladly go where ever necessary to pick her up, even at the cost of my life. When God made me and my heart, He made my heart the real deal. Love isn't visible, love is that invisible connection between two people that nothing and nobody can ever destroy.
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