When it comes to the woman I love, you have to understand a few things about me. Mainly how I love her, and where my heart is with her. There is a reason behind everything I do, a reason I take the stance I do, I don't do anything at random if I can help it.
One thing about me is freedom is very important to me, not just my freedom or her freedom, but freedom for everyone no matter who they are. I'm a big supporter of free will, freedom to live life as we choose, freedom to make our own choices and mistakes. Right or wrong, I truly push for real freedom and equality for all, this is a big deal to me, an it always will be, and it shows in how I try to treat others as equals on every level no matter who they are. So as a result, I never want to hold her down or back, I want her to feel free and feel she can chase her dreams freely. And that is one goal of mine, to love her in a way where she doesn't feel restricted.
I support her in every way, and yes my desire is to spend my life with her, and I confess I want to be with her all the time, but all that said I know she needs her personal space at times. And I've made an extra effort to give her that, I text a whole lot less, I ask more generic things, I let her volunteer things when she wants, I try not to ask questions about her to others, I feel she wants it this way right now, and if I must prove to her I can love her completely and still give her that privacy and space, then so be it. Believe me, I want to go eat with her, call and talk to her, and more, but I feel now is not the time for me to ask, I feel when she is ready for this she will ask me, and of course I'll say yes.
When we first got close, one thing she said is all we did was text, and there was truth to that, but it wasn't lack of me trying, there were times I did call her and left a message just to talk, and she never called back, many of those text were trying to find something to do, but she never took the chance. I feel back then I was making the effort, but the effort wasn't being returned. Not saying I'm a 100% right to feel this way, and it is in the past of course, but this is simply from my point of view of that time. If she wanted more than text from me, at that time she could of had it very easily with just a little effort from her side.
Truth is, I don't ask much from the one I love, I really don't. To me, with her all I ask is for a commitment to each other and simply be there for each other, and that is really it. Sounds simple, and maybe it is, but in love to me it is the little things that mean everything. Look, right now isn't the best time for me I confess, but in time I will be back on top in life, and at that time I will have plenty to offer I know, but understand I'm the type who remembers how one treated me when I had nothing, and those are the one's I am there for when I have everything. I don't love someone out of convenience, I don't use people at all, I love someone because i truly love then, because I love them whether they are in a good place in life or a bad place, my love is truly unconditional. That I believe in God's ability to provide for us, so I believe great things are allows ahead.
The last thing I want to do to her is smother her, and sometimes I get the impression she feels that way, but just because someone loves you enough to tell you every chance they get, or loves you enough to want to spend there life to you, doesn't mean they are smothering you, it simply means they love you completely, there is a vast difference. Sometimes, you have to get past your personal fears, and explore love and many times you will find that love you ran from is the love you were always looking for. Doubt is most often than not just fear holding you back, and doubt rarely proves accurate, sometimes the best choice is the choice we doubt the most, sometimes the best choice is the biggest risk.
I can love her the exact way she desires, I am willing to give her all that she needs, and if it is in my power I am willing to help her achieve her dreams. I really am the one, there is no doubt in my mind. She already gives me everything I deserve and more in love by being who she is, I couldn't ask for more, I hope she realizes this. I love her.
One thing about me is freedom is very important to me, not just my freedom or her freedom, but freedom for everyone no matter who they are. I'm a big supporter of free will, freedom to live life as we choose, freedom to make our own choices and mistakes. Right or wrong, I truly push for real freedom and equality for all, this is a big deal to me, an it always will be, and it shows in how I try to treat others as equals on every level no matter who they are. So as a result, I never want to hold her down or back, I want her to feel free and feel she can chase her dreams freely. And that is one goal of mine, to love her in a way where she doesn't feel restricted.
I support her in every way, and yes my desire is to spend my life with her, and I confess I want to be with her all the time, but all that said I know she needs her personal space at times. And I've made an extra effort to give her that, I text a whole lot less, I ask more generic things, I let her volunteer things when she wants, I try not to ask questions about her to others, I feel she wants it this way right now, and if I must prove to her I can love her completely and still give her that privacy and space, then so be it. Believe me, I want to go eat with her, call and talk to her, and more, but I feel now is not the time for me to ask, I feel when she is ready for this she will ask me, and of course I'll say yes.
When we first got close, one thing she said is all we did was text, and there was truth to that, but it wasn't lack of me trying, there were times I did call her and left a message just to talk, and she never called back, many of those text were trying to find something to do, but she never took the chance. I feel back then I was making the effort, but the effort wasn't being returned. Not saying I'm a 100% right to feel this way, and it is in the past of course, but this is simply from my point of view of that time. If she wanted more than text from me, at that time she could of had it very easily with just a little effort from her side.
Truth is, I don't ask much from the one I love, I really don't. To me, with her all I ask is for a commitment to each other and simply be there for each other, and that is really it. Sounds simple, and maybe it is, but in love to me it is the little things that mean everything. Look, right now isn't the best time for me I confess, but in time I will be back on top in life, and at that time I will have plenty to offer I know, but understand I'm the type who remembers how one treated me when I had nothing, and those are the one's I am there for when I have everything. I don't love someone out of convenience, I don't use people at all, I love someone because i truly love then, because I love them whether they are in a good place in life or a bad place, my love is truly unconditional. That I believe in God's ability to provide for us, so I believe great things are allows ahead.
The last thing I want to do to her is smother her, and sometimes I get the impression she feels that way, but just because someone loves you enough to tell you every chance they get, or loves you enough to want to spend there life to you, doesn't mean they are smothering you, it simply means they love you completely, there is a vast difference. Sometimes, you have to get past your personal fears, and explore love and many times you will find that love you ran from is the love you were always looking for. Doubt is most often than not just fear holding you back, and doubt rarely proves accurate, sometimes the best choice is the choice we doubt the most, sometimes the best choice is the biggest risk.
I can love her the exact way she desires, I am willing to give her all that she needs, and if it is in my power I am willing to help her achieve her dreams. I really am the one, there is no doubt in my mind. She already gives me everything I deserve and more in love by being who she is, I couldn't ask for more, I hope she realizes this. I love her.
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