Always Good

I've always been very straight forward about myself on here, and tried to stay pretty consistent.  I think I've managed to do that.  There is a saying "Good guys finish last."  Personally I find more and more that saying to be far from true, then again maybe there is some truth to it but not in the way people think.  You see, bad guys might finish first, but often times when they finish it never lasts, they also wind up scampering and trying to find their next victim, and eventually their well runs dry.  Good guys however are patient, they understand if your going to do something, then do it right the first time, and while they might finish last persay, when they finish it lasts a lifetime.

There are so many terms for the bad boy such as thug, hustler, player, and so on.  And it is said that this is what women are drawn too and will often times instinctively chase after, even though deep they know it never lasts or ends well with them, they're drawn to the excitement and the idea they can tame them.  But reality is, they know what they need is the good guy, the one who will put them first, the one who does things the right way, the one who has integrity and honor, the one who leads by example.

No matter what, no matter where I am in life, or whatever happens to me, I will never be the bad boy type.  It isn't in me, and truthfully I don't believe it's the way God intended us to be.  I will always be the good guy, and I don't mind the label of finishing last because I know God will make sure when I finish it will be lifelong.  I'm not a normal guy, I don't chase the bad girls or easy girls or whatever, I am drawn to women who are strong, smart, chase their dreams, hardheaded, kind, God fearing, driven and more.  I don't give myself to just anyone, I'm very guarded in that area.  I would rather be alone, then be with a woman just for looks or sex, because to me meaningless love is a waste of time.  I mean what you get night of happiness, and afterwards nothing.  What is the point?  You can keep your one night stands, I have no interest.

When I love, I love for the long haul.  And truthfully, there is only one woman I love like that, and she knows who she is, and because of that I really have no interest elsewhere.  My heart is her's, and I'm more than ok with that, because I see who she is, and believe me she is so much more than just a sexy woman, there is so much more to her.  I see it in her eyes, in her smile, in her facial expressions, I hear it in her voice, I see the wheels turning, and it is a beautiful thing.  Let the bad boys, or whatever they want to be called, have their fun and day, in the end I know as good guy I will stand tall, and I know God has a plan for me, I believe it, and nobody can take that from me unless God allows it.  I love her, I believe in her, and I will never give up on her, that I can without a doubt guarantee on my life.

So Things About Me

When it comes to the woman I love, you have to understand a few things about me.  Mainly how I love her, and where my heart is with her.  There is a reason behind everything I do, a reason I take the stance I do, I don't do anything at random if I can help it. 

One thing about me is freedom is very important to me, not just my freedom or her freedom, but freedom for everyone no matter who they are.  I'm a big supporter of free will, freedom to live life as we choose, freedom to make our own choices and mistakes.  Right or wrong, I truly push for real freedom and equality for all, this is a big deal to me, an it always will be, and it shows in how I try to treat others as equals on every level no matter who they are.  So as a result, I never want to hold her down or back, I want her to feel free and feel she can chase her dreams freely.  And that is one goal of mine, to love her in a way where she doesn't feel restricted.

I support her in every way, and yes my desire is to spend my life with her, and I confess I want to be with her all the time, but all that said I know she needs her personal space at times.  And I've made an extra effort to give her that, I text a whole lot less, I ask more generic things, I let her volunteer things when she wants, I try not to ask questions about her to others, I feel she wants it this way right now, and if I must prove to her I can love her completely and still give her that privacy and space, then so be it.  Believe me, I want to go eat with her, call and talk to her, and more, but I feel now is not the time for me to ask, I feel when she is ready for this she will ask me, and of course I'll say yes.

When we first got close, one thing she said is all we did was text, and there was truth to that, but it wasn't lack of me trying, there were times I did call her and left a message just to talk, and she never called back, many of those text were trying to find something to do, but she never took the chance.  I feel back then I was making the effort, but the effort wasn't being returned.  Not saying I'm a 100% right to feel this way, and it is in the past of course, but this is simply from my point of view of that time.  If she wanted more than text from me, at that time she could of had it very easily with just a little effort from her side.

Truth is, I don't ask much from the one I love, I really don't.  To me, with her all I ask is for a commitment to each other and simply be there for each other, and that is really it.  Sounds simple, and maybe it is, but in love to me it is the little things that mean everything.  Look, right now isn't the best time for me I confess, but in time I will be back on top in life, and at that time I will have plenty to offer I know, but understand I'm the type who remembers how one treated me when I had nothing, and those are the one's I am there for when I have everything.  I don't love someone out of convenience, I don't use people at all, I love someone because i truly love then, because I love them whether they are in a good place in life or a bad place, my love is truly unconditional.  That I believe in God's ability to provide for us, so I believe great things are allows ahead.

The last thing I want to do to her is smother her, and sometimes I get the impression she feels that way, but just because someone loves you enough to tell you every chance they get, or loves you enough to want to spend there life to you, doesn't mean they are smothering you, it simply means they love you completely, there is a vast difference.  Sometimes, you have to get past your personal fears, and explore love and many times you will find that love you ran from is the love you were always looking for.  Doubt is most often than not just fear holding you back, and doubt rarely proves accurate, sometimes the best choice is the choice we doubt the most, sometimes the best choice is the biggest risk.

I can love her the exact way she desires, I am willing to give her all that she needs, and if it is in my power I am willing to help her achieve her dreams.  I really am the one, there is no doubt in my mind.  She already gives me everything I deserve and more in love by being who she is, I couldn't ask for more, I hope she realizes this.  I love her.

All

Why do I love her so much?  Well, let me just say when I see her and talk to her, I think this is a woman I can get behind, that I can willingly support and help in anyway possible, someone I know I can always trust in and believe in, someone I'm not afraid to bet all I have on, someone I'm honored to go to war beside, some one I would gladly risk my life for, someone I would be willing to live forever for, a woman I would gladly place before myself in every way.  I love her, completely and truly.

There are no conditions, I love her when we're poor and when we're rich, when we fail and when we succeed, when times are good and times are bad, I love her on her good days and bad days.  Bottom line is no matter what is going on in either of our lives, I love her unconditionally.  And even when either or both of us are down or struggling, I believe in us to rise above it all.

Life and love are far from perfect, there will be perfect moments, there will be moments of fear, we will be in perfect harmony, we will butt heads at times, but in the end, no matter what, I will be there holding her hand and placing her on my shoulders to carry her through any and all storms we must pass through.  I will be her shield, I will be her sword, I will be her raft in the ocean, I will be whatever she needs me to be. 

My blood is her blood as well, my sweat is her sweat as well, my tears are her tears as well, my breath is her breath as well, my money and success is her's as well.  This is where I stand, this is how I feel, nobody can remove this love for her from me, because it is too real.  I've been through extreme pain, I have remained humble, my pride is long gone, through pain I have learned how much I love her, and how I need her.  Sometimes moving forward isn't about letting go, sometimes you need someone to be that piece, to be your partner, to be able to move on to the greatness you both are destined for.  Don't be to quick to let everything go, because there are times God places people in our lives with the intention of us to never let them go, sometimes He wants to know how bad we want the or need them, and how much we our willing to go through to keep holding on.  Sometimes it's a test of our love and our heart, I am determined to show I will not give up on her, as she is all I ever need and want, and all I love for in life.

Time Passes

So there are times certain thoughts and feelings come through you, sometimes they leave immediately and we brush them off, but then there are times they linger and really make you think there is something more to them.  This is going to sound like I'm down on myself, but really it isn't that at all, it's just me looking at where I'm at and seeing what I see.  As the years pass by and I grow older and things haven't changed in the ways I wish them too, I realize I will probably never be married, probably never experience a family of my own, and probably never have kids of my own.  And this breaks my heart to the core, because those who know me know that these dreams are the most important dreams in my life.

I only want these dreams with one person I confess, she is my everything, and I love her with all I am and all my life.  And I believe we can and will be one day, but time is definitely ticking away, and while we might be one day, and she will be more than enough to bring me happiness, I realize if too much time passes the rest of dream grows less and less likely.  I am the very definition of a giving heart, I will always place myself second, and I'm ok with that.  I refuse to walk over people, I just believe we all matter in life and that none of us should ever treat anyone as less than ourselves.

I'm a very shy and guarded person, I don't let many people in my heart or world, they few I let in I would do anything with them or for them, but only for them and not in front of anyone else I haven't let into my heart.  And the truth is, I often times don't know when I'm letting someone in because it kind of just happens.

There is absolutely nothing fake about me, I am who I am.  And I will always stand by who I am, and those I love, I will always tell you where we stand, though I admit I choose my moments carefully.  And there are times I realize silence is better than hurting someone.  If you want all of me, if you want to break my shell, then you have to claim me and make that effort.  I'm not the guy you will grab your ass or make crude comments, unless you've committed yourself to me already and claimed me, rather I'm the guy who will respect you, help you, compliment you, and always stand by you, and never forget you, I will text you good morning and good night without fail, I will try and motivate you at all costs, but to get more out of me, to get me physical, to get the fun side out of me, I need more from you, I need to know you want it, I need to know you want me and are ready to claim me.  If you don't do your part, believe me I will not take that step, it isn't who I am.

I'm a true gentleman first, and a lover second.  Unlike most men, sex is not the first thing on my mind, I'm searching for something much more real and long lasting.  I want happiness, success, a woman I can laugh and cry with, someone who I am enough for and she is enough for me, someone who smiles, someone who loves to play around, someone who wants to spend time with me as I do with her, and if all those line up right, then comes the sex part.  I'm not easy to get into bed, I'm just not, I have a lot more self respect to be like that.  If someone gets me to that point, I want them to know they did something special.  I feel the more you give yourself away, then the more you devalue yourself, you become that cheap steak that anyone can afford, I prefer to be the expensive steak that only those who earn it can obtain.

I'm a tricky person, there is no one key to my heart, and often times it just happens.  The woman I love more than anything, got into my heart in a way I never saw coming.  She broke so many of my rules it's crazy.  Before her, I wouldn't date a woman with kids, I wouldn't date outside my race, I wouldn't sate anyone more than 5 years younger or older than me, I wouldn't date anyone taller than me, I wouldn't date anyone I work with, yet despite all this, she became the one and only love in  my life.  And to this day, she is now perfection to me, God changed my heart for her, and to me that tells me how real this love is, it tells me God approves.  That is the part few realize, what it took for her to get into my heart, she worked hard for this, and she did show masterfully.  I would not be who I am today without her, she changed me more than she ever realizes, and that is amazing.  I will never give up on being her until I die, even if it means my dreams never come true, I will wait for her forever.  Nobody can ever change my heart or mind.  At least I admit this.  I'm not sure any other man she ever meets will ever admit all this to her, or let her change him as I have let her change me.  I'm all in on her, and I wouldn't have it any other way.  What she has in me is something very few people ever have in life.

What Can I Say

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true oh
All I want for Christmas is you

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need, and I
Don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow, and I
I just wanna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe

I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake
To hear those magic reindeer click

'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh, Baby all I want for Christmas is you

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air

And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me
The one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me quickly

I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just wanna see my baby
Standing right outside my door

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you

All I want for Christmas is you, baby

100% Real

This is going to be one of those random silly rants here about my own personal opinion I confess, and really about something that isn't a huge deal really, but it frustrates me a bit I suppose.  I love one woman and one alone, I've been pretty consistent about that I think.  And I recently heard her make a comment that she feels fat.  Now before I say anymore I want to stress she is entitled to her own personal opinion, and her opinion is her's to have, and really opinions aren't necessarily right or wrong, they are simply one's point of view.

Anyhow, I just want her to know and really grasp the fact she is nowhere near fat, seriously not even close.  I can show you pictures of a fat person to compare to, and believe me she is not fat.  Truthfully, to me her body is pretty close to perfect honestly.  She is thick, but to me thick, and most men if they're honest, is sexy, and with her I would have to say all her curves are in the right places and she definitely wears her curves extremely well.  And I also would like to go on record saying if anyone, and I mean anyone says she is fat, they need to slapped upside the head and sent to the eye doctor and get an IQ test, ok maybe that is a bit extreme I know, but seriously she is nowhere near fat, never has been.

In reality, we all want to improve our bodies, some toning here and some toning there, but that's the human side of us that is always chasing perfection, or what we see in our minds as perfection, and no matter what we will never achieve it as even when we reach our initial goals we'll find new imperfection to fix, and there is nothing wrong with that as it keeps us on our toes.  I guess what I want to get across her is I want her to know and hear it from a guy that she is beyond sexy and beautiful.  I could go on and on about her, and truthfully there are three physical features about her that break me down every time her, and her body is number one, followed by her eyes and then her killer smile, add her sense of humor, kind heart and overall personality and she kills me every time, seriously my heart doesn't stand a chance from not melting.  I compliment her all the time, and sometimes I feel she grows immune to it, like she thinks I'm just being nice, but I'm blunt, very blunt, trust me I wouldn't compliment her if I didn't 100% mean it, and I would definitely be the first to tell her if something was wrong.  So in all seriousness, to me she is the most beautiful, sexiest, complete woman I have ever known or met, and I truly mean that, and it's part of the reason I see her as a queen, but even with all her physical beauty, she is a million more times beautiful in her heart and mind, she really is.  I just want her to know that, and I mean really know that, there will always be haters who try to bring her down, but I'm telling the world now, don't believe the haters for one second, she is as close to perfection as humanly possible.  She will always be the only woman I truly completely love in this way, to me she is my entire purpose in life and world.

Always and Forever

I love her, and she deserves the best, she deserves more in life, she deserves all her dreams and success.  And somehow, someway I will deliver everything in life she could possibly dream of, that is what I've been working towards and what I've been working for.  She is a queen in every way, she is perfect, she is a blessing, she is amazing, and she deserves to be treated like she is the only woman alive.  I want to show her this side of me, I want to give her all I have and more, I want her to think I belong to her, but as things are right now I must hold back until she comes for me. 

Believe me, if things were different I would be all her's and not hold back.  And I would risk all I have just to be with her and she her smile.  I love her.  She is all that matters to me, she is my reason for living and breathing, she truly is my very world literally.  Every night and day she is who I dream of, every thought I make is of her, and I'm not afraid to admit it.  I'm the man who is willing to deliver on everything she needs and wants in life, and I know it, all she has to do is claim me as her's and let go of anything holding us back.

I will find a way, as I always do.  I believe so much in her and I don't worry about it.  All I want for Christmas, birthday, in life is her.   I'm not worried about money, or material things, because I truly know and believe she is all I need and her love is all I need to live happily.  I dream of days and nights we can lie there and just talk and have fun and be together happily, let the walls down, let each other in, I want to talk about our futures, dreams and goals.  I love her humor, her sarcasm, her heart, her strength, I love it all, and watch it all and never have I ever been disappointed in her.  I will always give myself to her completely, no matter the cost, I love her that much and that true.  I will never abandon her, I will never let her forget how great she is, my heart will always be her's and that brings me peace.  I will always allow things to play out because I know my love is real and will never die, and I know I can stand behind everything I say and write for real.  I love her completely and unconditionally, there is nothing I wouldn't give or do for her out of love.  My life is her's forever.

Don't Wanna Miss Anything

Here's the thing about the woman I love.  As much as I know she doesn't understand this or maybe she chooses not to believe it, she is the greatest thing or person to ever come into my life.  I can honestly say I can't and don't want to imagine my life without her, I can't remember life without her.  She is the best part of me, she brings out all the good in me.  I don't want to find another her, I don't want to love someone else, she is all I want and all I need.  It's really hard to put into words, but I love her that much, so much I can't love anyone else like I do her.

Am I less of a man for admitting this, personally I don't think so.  You see, we always wait for the perfect moment, we wait because we feel that option will always be there.  But I don't want to wait too long for her, I don't want to risk losing her and missing our chance because we were waiting for the perfect moment.  She is my greatest joy, my greatest battle, my greatest love.

Things will never be perfect, I know this, but life will always been amazing with her by my side, I know this.  How can I be so confident you ask.  Because I know I love her, and I know how amazing she is.  She is so beautiful, she always is, and that is just the truth of it.  I'm so scared of losing her I confess, she truly is everything to me.  I play cool, and act like I'm fine on my own, but reality is I need her, and I always have.   And if she needs me too, I'm ok with that, I'll take that on my shoulders, in fact I'd be honored and blessed to be that for her.  I just want her to know that even if she doesn't understand why I love her so much and why I see her as perfection, that doesn't mean it isn't true, in my eyes she is very definition of perfection, and every second I am blessed to be with her is pure bliss, I just always want her as close as possible I confess.  She is my one, she is what love is to me.  I don't want to miss out with her by chasing other people or other things, she is all I want to be with and to love, now and forever.

Perfection To Me

The woman I love will be the first to admit she isn't perfect, she'll be the first to admit she will make mistakes, she'll be the first to admit she has her flaws, but she'll also be the first to admit she does the best she possibly can at all times, and truthfully her best is pretty damn impressive.  I'm not saying she is wrong by any means, I mean this is really true about us all.  But to me, in my eyes, she is perfect, she doesn't make mistakes, her flaws are minimal and all but invisible to me, you see everything in life is in the eye of the beholder.  And I love her so much that everything thing about her and everything she is, it all makes her who she is and who I love, so all this makes her perfect to me.

She makes a bad choice, but she perfectly tries to make it better immediately.  She fails, but she perfectly stands back and doesn't give up.  She is everything I love, everything I need in the woman I love, everything I want as well.  From her smile to her heart, her figure to her mind, her eyes to her soul, she is completely beautiful from the inside out.  She makes me feel a million times better about myself by simply being with her.

I miss our talks, I want to talk about everything with her, our dreams, our pasts, our presents, our futures, our fears, our joys, our plans, and anything else.  I want to make this very clear, she is the only person in the universe that I'm willing to bet my entire future on, seriously the only person.  I would actually sell my life to her if I could, I'm that in love with her and I believe that much in her and her success.  I will fly with her, but if it doesn't work out I will gladly sink with her, no matter what happens with us I will never abandon her.

I know this sounds crazy, but there are times I actually wish she'd just kidnap me and we could run off and start life anew, and even though I know this'll never happen because we both have things we can't run from right now, it just shows me that I have no fear with her, that I truly believe no matter where we go we can be successful and happy.  Truthfully I just want her to take me and make me her's, I can be stubborn and I can sometimes be stuck in my ways, but deep down I honestly want her to break me and claim me and make me be her's.  It's weird I know, but as strong as I am, I know when I love someone as I love her I want them to be able to grab control me.

The thing is, I won't just follow anyone, in fact she might be the only person I love enough to completely follow.  To me, we're a great team, and we actually have more simlar goals than she realizes.  It isn't about power with me or material things, to me it's about us, our love, our happiness, our future, and our family we can have.  It's the little things.  Everything I deserve, everything I need, is in her and is who she is, she just hasn't realized that yet.  I'll never make it easy for her, if she is going to claim me, she has to trust herself enough and just do it, believe me, I won't resist.

So Ready

It's hard to explain really, but the best way I can say it I guess is when I'm with her everything in the world seems right.  When I'm with her everything seems easy and reachable.  She gives me peace, hope, understanding and a feeling of a place in this world.  I love her, I'm ready for anything with her, I don't know what we'll face in life, but I know with her we'll find a way through it.

I just want want to wrap my arms around and lock in, close our eyes and conquer the world together.  It's the little things in life that mean the most to me, the way she makes me feel, the way she smiles, the way she gives, the way it feels when we touch, the look in her eyes, the sound of her voice, the time she makes for me, the simple hello and check in, every little thin she does melts my heart.

I just love her so much, so completely.  I'm just ready to explore this love with her, I'm ready to jump all in at once, truth is we've been taken it slow, really slow, but I think it's time to burst through our comfort zones, go that extra mile.  I believe we're ready, I believe we both need each other for this, I give myself to her willingly and happily.  All I can say really to her is "Let's do this, and let's do these without looking back."

Feeling Moved

I make it a habit when God moves me to do something or feel something to never say no, because when you say no or push it away you are missing God's blessing, and you are missing real happiness.  I say this because God has moved me to love her, He has moved me to help her, He has moved me to be there for her, He has moved me to support her.  God makes loving her very easy and natural for me.  So when He makes me feel this way, and moves my heart so, I refuse to say no to loving her.  I believe God has big wonderful plans for us both together, so I wait patiently, and I wait for her to stop saying never, and to start accepting our blessings.  I truly believe in us 100% and have zero doubt we are meant to be.  This is simply me being completely blunt and honest about us.

Embrace It

Most men run when they feel themselves loving a woman more than themselves, most men run from committing themselves to one woman for life, most men run from the thought of completely giving themselves to a woman.  The thing is, most mean feel when these things happen that they are less of a man and in many ways weak.  However, reality is the opposite, a weak man runs from love, a weak man only loves himself above all others, while a strong man stays the course, a strong man loves one woman more than himself and knows his heart is big enough to survive it.  Sacrifice is not allows about money, and really money is a small petty sacrifice in reality.  Real sacrifice is spiritual, physical, mental and time.  Blood, sweat, tears, joy, now those are some real sacrifices.

I've always been a man who embraces his love, and I love her, and I don't run from that.  I embrace my love for her, I embrace her needs and wants, I embrace her dreams, I embrace her troubles, I embrace he success, I embrace her attitude, I embrace her tears and smiles, I embrace her family, I embrace her friends, I embrace her work, I embrace her ideals, and really I embrace all of her without a second thought.  I am willing to bare her cross and burdens for life, I am willing to lift her up even higher than myself, I am willing to hold her close when we are in the fires of life, I'm willing to not only be her shield, but to also be her sword, I'm willing to listen to her vents and be the healing she needs.

She fights my love, she swears we can't be, but I know she sees it in me, she sees how true and strong my love for her is, and deep down she admires it, and deep down she realizes nobody else can love her like I do, and be as committed to her as I am.  One day I believe she realize we are meant to be, and whatever holds her back now will soon disappear, I might be a good guy, but I refuse to finish last when it comes to her.  In the end I have to believe God will reward a good heart and good love.

What is my dream, my dream is complicated yet so simple.  My dream is spending my life with her in love, have a family of our own, and not be rich, but rather be successful enough to live worry free and be able to provide for those we love, and to serve God through our actions together, and ultimately to bring her happiness, success, and fulfill her dreams as well.  That truly is all there is to my dream, she is my dream, no matter what the results are between us.  We will have bad days, weeks, months, maybe even years, but we will  have more good times than bad I know.  But no matter the good or the bad, no matter the circumstances we encounter, I will always stay with her and love her and treat her as the queen I see her as.  It has never been a burden to love her or do for her, I've never complained about loving her, because to me she is a blessing and an angel in disguise.

What I want for Christmas or my birthday or whatever is simple, yet only one person can truly make it happen.  All I want and need is her, it truly is.  If I spent an entire day with her it would be the greatest gift in world.  I don't place rules on her or restrictions, because it is who she is that I love.  Think about that, think about the self sacrifice there, the length I'm going to love her, and to me there is no doubt she is worth it.  I'm willing and really wanting to lose myself forever in her, I'm ok with that, I actually look forward to that.  Say what you will about me, but there is no denying how true and real my love is for her, and even she must confess she has never seen this love in anyone else before, and I confess she never will, because my love is complete love and complete trust and complete commitment forever and beyond.  I promise to be the last risk in love you ever take, because I promise my love will last forever and beyond.  Happiness is in the eye of the beholder, and in my eyes she is happiness, even when she is mad at me and the fire is in her eyes, I love her and am happy with her.  Nobody can ever understand that until they feel it themselves.  Test me, and I promise I will never fail in loving her completely.

The One

What you got to realize about me is I'm the guy who isn't afraid to love her, I'm the guy who isn't afraid to put all my hope in her, I'm the guy who isn't afraid to commit myself to her and only her, I'm the guy who isn't afraid of always supporting her and her dreams and her family, I'm the guy who isn't afraid to lay all I got on the line for her, I'm the guy who isn't afraid of shouldering all her worries and problems for her, I'm the guy who isn't afraid to be there for her and provide for her, I'm the guy who isn't afraid to admit she is my life.  I see her, and I don't see a challenge, I always see her as the greatest blessing in my life.

I talk big about my love for her, but the thing is I usually undersell it still.  My love for her has no bounds, my belief in her has no limits, words can never explain how I love her completely.  I will stop at nothing to make sure her dreams come true, to make sure she is loved, to make sure she is safe, to make sure she is happy.  I understand to make her dreams come true she has to devote her time to them, and I support that with her, I love her for that and am more then willing to not only give her that time, but stand with her in her fight for success.

Sometimes I baffle her how I can love her so much and so blindly, she doesn't understand it, but she doesn't have to understand it, but rather just believe in it as I believe in her.  My life is better with her in it, and I like to think I make her life better too.  I can't tell you where we are going or what will happen if we get together in love, but I can promise you I will do everything in my power to make our love and lives together pure bliss and successful.  I'm telling you point blank, whether you want to admit it or not, I am the guy, I am the one, and I am happy to be the one.

Trust

Even in silence, I believe in her, and love her forever.  I trust her enough to know sometimes things happen where people can't respond.  So I trust her.  I will never stop loving her and I know one day soon things will be back to normal.  Of course I miss her, but what do you expect when you love someone as I do her.  God has this I know, I trust His plan, I trust in this love He placed in me.

Curious To Say The Least

So there is this psychological test that is supposedly proven to make two people fall completely in love once completing.  The catch is you have to be completely honest with each other and answer 36 questions, and then finish by staring in each others eyes for 4 minutes without speaking.  Personally I'm not sure any test can make someone fall in love, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't intrigued.  I would be willing to take this test with the woman I love, let my walls down and let our hearts out to each other.  Even if it we didn't fall in love, I feel it would make us both more comfortable with each other, and if we did fall in love then it would be amazing.  The test would probably take an hour or two, and we'd have to agree no interruptions, so no phones or anything like that, but no matter how things turn out I only see this as being really good for us, but we would have to drop all our walls and let the honest truth flow.

I have the link here:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2909261/The-36-questions-guaranteed-make-fall-love-Two-couples-soulmates-taking-psychologists-quiz.html

You have to copy and paste it of course, but I really want to try this with her if she is willing.  Not sure how to ask her, maybe she'll find out and ask me, you never know.  But yeah, it really got me thinking, I actually saw this test on tv at first, but sometimes I just curious I suppose.  Never hurts to take a risk and try.

Deep

I'm going to let you in on a secret, when a man is truly and completely in love with a woman, he has no problem admitting she is his everything and that in so many ways she could have her way with him and he would allow it without a second thought.  The thing that confuses a lot of people is when men act like they don't care or need her, here is the truth to that, that is because they aren't completely in love with her or committed to her.

I'm going to be completely blunt and honest, the woman I love is everything to me, she can have her way with me on anything or at anytime, I would move heaven and earth for her, and everything I do revolves around her.  The thing is, I'm committed to her and only her.  I'm not afraid to confess I want and need to spend my life with her.  I never grow tired of her, I never dread seeing her, she is my highlight, she is my sunshine, she is my hope, she is my dreams.

I actually had a very vivid dream about her last night I confess, and we became one in a rather bizarre way, but I won't go into details except to say she took control and made us one, and the thing is I kind of liked that.  I'm no pushover, and honestly I'm extremely hard to tame, I tend to lead a lot and want to be in charge on the outside, I like to make the decisions it seems, but deep down I want to follow the one I love, I want to serve the one I love.  It's said Virgos can be dominant and brilliant leaders and very fair, but it is also known that nobody is more loyal or willing to serve than a Virgo.  We might be blunt, we might have opinions, but in the end are loyal and desire to serve who we love.  And it's bizarre to other people to understand how I can find happiness in serving the woman I love, but that is true happiness to me.  Being with her is true happiness, even on our bad days being with her is true happiness.  I love putting up with her attitude both good and bad, I love listening to her stubbornness because I see the strong side to her and sometimes she might be right. I love her daughter beyond words, I love her mother as my best friend, I even love the rest of her family truthfully.  I love everything about her, the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful.  Truth is, I love her just the way she is, and I feel she is perfect in my eyes.

I never handle compliments well, I'm humble, so I blush and am not sure how to act.  I enjoy compliments, I just have that Virgo side of me and I'm hard on myself already, so I know my flaws, so sometimes the compliments don't always hit as great as they should.  I thrive on proving my value and worth, I thrive on proving people wrong who doubt me.  I'm strong beyond words, and I always find a way.  I will never give up on her no matter the circumstances, and one day I hope to break through her defenses and earn my way to her heart for a chance at true love.  I have never wanted someone to succeed in life more than I want her to.  When I hear the word love at any time, I immediately picture her.  I know she doubts at times we'll work, she might doubt she can't love me how she feels I deserve to be loved, but reality is we deserve what we get, and in my eyes I don't feel worthy of her love at times, but not because I'm bad or worthless, but because I value her love that much.  Truth is, the love she has from me has no match, because I completely her's, I would give my body to sustain her, my soul to fulfill her, my mind to ease her, my heart to support her, everything thing I have in this life and the next in my eyes is her's, and that is simply how much I love her, and how strongly I feel about my love for her.  There is no mountain high enough, or valley deep enough to ever deter my love and loyalty and trust in her.  Forget the world and anyone else, and know I love you and you are all I ever need in life for everything.

Thankful

When you meet someone in life who stays by who through thick and thin.  Someone who still loves you even when you know you don't deserve it at the moment.  Someone who is always there for you even when you screw up.  Someone who is quick to offer a helping hand whenever you feel lost.  When you meet someone who truly is a great person and very special, and they still find a way to love you and make time to help you smile and succeed in life.  This is the person that the woman I love is, she truly is amazing.  We have been happy at times, we've fought at times, we've disagreed at times, we've supported each other at times, we've forgiven each other at times, but through it all we've never stopped loving each other at any time.  I love her so much for this, and I try hard to show her the same love as she has shown me.  I try to do all these things for her and let her know I notice her kindness and love, and I appreciate it eternally and never take her for granted.

You see I'm blessed double really, the woman I love has always been there for me, and my so has my best friend as well.  I have two people in my life who happen to be close themselves, who also mean the world to me because I know they always have my back, even when I may not deserve it.  I notice everything, even if I don't acknowledge it.  I love her, she is everything to me, and that is ok with me.  A life with her is truly the only thing in life I truly want and need.  When you love someone as I love her, then nothing else in life really comes close to her.  The day we finally give our love a chance will truly be the happiest day of my life, trust me.

Strong

I love her, I've always admitted this.  I just want her to realize she is a very special woman.  She is extremely brave and undeniably strong.  She has a strong since of justice and is very ambitious.  She dreams big, but she tries hard to make them real, and often succeeds.  I truly see her as queen and she deserves only best treatment in life.  I personally believe in her and always will, and nobody can ever change my mind or heart.  I am fully committed to her, and will always be loyal to her without a second thought.  You have to realize when you love someone as great as her just a special she is, and you have to treat her in a special way.  She is the type woman you need to let her reach for the stars and grab her dreams, let her dream big and live big, and just stand with her and support her.  She is the definition of true beauty inside and out.