You need to understand something about me. I weigh a lot of things into my choices, a lot of people into my decisions, I wait and get as much information and actions as possible so I can make the best informed choice possible. I am not mad at you, I am not upset with you, I am not even saying you are bad, the truth is I will always love you completely and wish to spend my life with you, but the thing that is also the real problem. My love is real, always has been and always will be. What you do and say matter to me, both good and bad.
Lately things have changed, the truth is the woman I love hasn't done anything wrong to me lately, so I don't want her thinking it's anything she did or said, it's really more so what hasn't happened or hasn't been said, for some time now I've waited patiently for her to find herself and give us that chance, and God refused to remove that love from me, but the last 6 months or so I've felt God pulling that love out for the first time ever. Truthfully she is still all I want and need in life, and I still dream to be with her, but God has given me options and He knows my dream is to have my own family and time for me is running short for that, I can't forever and still fulfill my dream. So it's a choice, sacrifice my dream of a family and wait until she is ready and fulfill her dreams, or let go of the one I love and pursue the family I dream of. Perfect world she'd find herself tomorrow and we'd get together in time to begin a family and both our dreams come true, but right now this isn't a perfect world.
There is someone else who has affected me, a friend who seems to find time for everyone else but me, a friend who always has something happen to keep us from getting together, yet never has anything happen to stop them from going out with other friends. I see this, and I can't help but wonder does that friend even care anymore, do they even respect me anymore. I keep repeating myself over and over about this and nothing changes, I wonder if I walked away would they even notice and try to get me back. For months this has hurt me, I get excited and think this time will be different, this time they'll keep their promise, and everytime I get crushed and disappointed, so if I act distant please understand your choices made me distant. Me stepping away is the consequence to your choice to constantly break your promises towards me.
There is someone at work I've grown fond of and she is fond of me, some things keep us from getting together at the moment, but we're close to being there, if I make this choice I will be fully committed to her even if the woman I love comes for me. I am a loyal man through and through, and I keep all my promises I can. I have been very clear of who I am and what I will do, understand you can't say you weren't warned.
Yes I changed, but don't think I changed for no reason or out of the blue, I changed because how you started treating me and your actions or lack actions towards me. How did you expect me to react? Did you honestly think I wouldn't be hurt or wouldn't mind? How many times must I repeat myself on how I feel before you realize I mean it? Do you even respect me as a friend as you claim? Things can still change, we can still be, but I just don't know how much longer that door will be open. i'm just being real with you on this. Sometimes people stop waiting for you, not because they want to stop, not because they stop loving you, but because they don't have time to wait anymore because now waiting on you is affecting their dreams, and you can't selfish and expect someone to give up their dreams just to wait for you figure out they truly love you.
The woman I love, the past few weeks of talking has been great, you've been amazing and I'm proud of you. I just felt it's time I consider some things, I hope we still talk, understand this is a personal choice based on what I feel in my heart right now. If you wish to change my heart, then simply prove it to me with your actions is all.
Lately things have changed, the truth is the woman I love hasn't done anything wrong to me lately, so I don't want her thinking it's anything she did or said, it's really more so what hasn't happened or hasn't been said, for some time now I've waited patiently for her to find herself and give us that chance, and God refused to remove that love from me, but the last 6 months or so I've felt God pulling that love out for the first time ever. Truthfully she is still all I want and need in life, and I still dream to be with her, but God has given me options and He knows my dream is to have my own family and time for me is running short for that, I can't forever and still fulfill my dream. So it's a choice, sacrifice my dream of a family and wait until she is ready and fulfill her dreams, or let go of the one I love and pursue the family I dream of. Perfect world she'd find herself tomorrow and we'd get together in time to begin a family and both our dreams come true, but right now this isn't a perfect world.
There is someone else who has affected me, a friend who seems to find time for everyone else but me, a friend who always has something happen to keep us from getting together, yet never has anything happen to stop them from going out with other friends. I see this, and I can't help but wonder does that friend even care anymore, do they even respect me anymore. I keep repeating myself over and over about this and nothing changes, I wonder if I walked away would they even notice and try to get me back. For months this has hurt me, I get excited and think this time will be different, this time they'll keep their promise, and everytime I get crushed and disappointed, so if I act distant please understand your choices made me distant. Me stepping away is the consequence to your choice to constantly break your promises towards me.
There is someone at work I've grown fond of and she is fond of me, some things keep us from getting together at the moment, but we're close to being there, if I make this choice I will be fully committed to her even if the woman I love comes for me. I am a loyal man through and through, and I keep all my promises I can. I have been very clear of who I am and what I will do, understand you can't say you weren't warned.
Yes I changed, but don't think I changed for no reason or out of the blue, I changed because how you started treating me and your actions or lack actions towards me. How did you expect me to react? Did you honestly think I wouldn't be hurt or wouldn't mind? How many times must I repeat myself on how I feel before you realize I mean it? Do you even respect me as a friend as you claim? Things can still change, we can still be, but I just don't know how much longer that door will be open. i'm just being real with you on this. Sometimes people stop waiting for you, not because they want to stop, not because they stop loving you, but because they don't have time to wait anymore because now waiting on you is affecting their dreams, and you can't selfish and expect someone to give up their dreams just to wait for you figure out they truly love you.
The woman I love, the past few weeks of talking has been great, you've been amazing and I'm proud of you. I just felt it's time I consider some things, I hope we still talk, understand this is a personal choice based on what I feel in my heart right now. If you wish to change my heart, then simply prove it to me with your actions is all.
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