It's hard when you have friends whom you care immensely for, and would always make time for no matter, and never make a fallback option ever, and you don't receive that in return. Maybe it's time I just realized I don't matter to them anymore, maybe it's time I just realized they don't care about me anymore like they claim to. I'm not talking about the woman I love right now, I'm talking about the person whom I considered my best friend. I can't keep giving them the benefit of the doubt, i can't keep turning a blind eye to them going out of their way to avoid me. I can't keep believing the lies they tell when then plan on making time for me. I can't because it hurts me too much to do so.
At least with the woman I love I understand where she is coming from, at least she is honest with me, and I know she is truly busy and not just avoiding me. At least I know she appreciates me and she is very upfront with me, this is a main reason I love her and I've always understood that about her. It's because of her honesty i don't sweat it when she is too busy for me at all. The difference between her and my other friend is I've caught my other friend in lies and they just don't realize I've caught them multiple times, mainly because I choose not to confront them.
The thing is while they've been ignoring me I've had some very intriguing options open up for me the past month, and while the woman I love is the one I truly want to spend my life with, there someone I'm seriously considering giving a chance to, and they've already expressed interest. And you have understand something about me, if I give this person a chance I will go all in, and this means the woman I love won't have a chance with me as long as I'm with this other person. I'm very loyal to the one's I love, and I give them all of me first. I didn't plan this, my perfect world to me is with the woman I love for life, and my best friend, but sometimes people push you away and think you won't find someone else, but the thing is they're wrong. I'm not like any other guy or friend, I'm very rare in that I will always put those I love before myself, but even I have a breaking point, while I'm extremely patience and can endure a lot, I'm not invincible. I'm going to give things a couple weeks before I make any decisions, but if things don't change soon, I will give this other person myself and give us the chance I wanted so dearly to have with the woman I love. They can't say I didn't give them a chance, I waited a long time and left that door open a long time, but I feel it slowly closing now, while it's still open at the moment, it is in motion. I prayed for God to guide me, funny how things work out. My friend can try and pin this on me all they want, but they know I made every effort to make time for us and they chose to make other plans constantly, this one is on them and deep down they know it. The woman I love knows I have given myself and heart to her constantly holding nothing back, I have left our love in her hands, and I will for a little longer, but unless she acts soon things will change.
At least with the woman I love I understand where she is coming from, at least she is honest with me, and I know she is truly busy and not just avoiding me. At least I know she appreciates me and she is very upfront with me, this is a main reason I love her and I've always understood that about her. It's because of her honesty i don't sweat it when she is too busy for me at all. The difference between her and my other friend is I've caught my other friend in lies and they just don't realize I've caught them multiple times, mainly because I choose not to confront them.
The thing is while they've been ignoring me I've had some very intriguing options open up for me the past month, and while the woman I love is the one I truly want to spend my life with, there someone I'm seriously considering giving a chance to, and they've already expressed interest. And you have understand something about me, if I give this person a chance I will go all in, and this means the woman I love won't have a chance with me as long as I'm with this other person. I'm very loyal to the one's I love, and I give them all of me first. I didn't plan this, my perfect world to me is with the woman I love for life, and my best friend, but sometimes people push you away and think you won't find someone else, but the thing is they're wrong. I'm not like any other guy or friend, I'm very rare in that I will always put those I love before myself, but even I have a breaking point, while I'm extremely patience and can endure a lot, I'm not invincible. I'm going to give things a couple weeks before I make any decisions, but if things don't change soon, I will give this other person myself and give us the chance I wanted so dearly to have with the woman I love. They can't say I didn't give them a chance, I waited a long time and left that door open a long time, but I feel it slowly closing now, while it's still open at the moment, it is in motion. I prayed for God to guide me, funny how things work out. My friend can try and pin this on me all they want, but they know I made every effort to make time for us and they chose to make other plans constantly, this one is on them and deep down they know it. The woman I love knows I have given myself and heart to her constantly holding nothing back, I have left our love in her hands, and I will for a little longer, but unless she acts soon things will change.
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