Monday, May 4, 2015

In A Heart

Time tells all truths, time uncovers everything.  I love you, I love you so much I'm willing to help build you up, I'm willing to share your dreams, and I'm willing to do whatever it takes to hep you achieve your dreams, or in my eyes our dreams.  I'm willing to completely commit myself to you.  That isn't weakness, loving someone like that takes great strength and faith.  Loving someone so pure, takes integrity and loyalty.  Willingness to love someone this way takes great self confidence.

You see, in your eyes you feel I'm desperate for you, that I'm nothing without you, but you couldn't have it more wrong.  Reality is I know how great I am, I know how true my heart is, I know the grand scale of my love, and I know what I have to offer is remarkable.  I could walk away from you and settle for someone I don't truly love, but that isn't me.  I choose to love you, you see in my eyes you too are remarkable in your own way, I see great things in you, and I will always push you to reach that greatness, and yes at times this will upset you, but I do so because I love you and believe in you.  Yes I'm rare, I'm great and I believe in what God has made me, but the thing is I believe you are all those things too.

It kills me to pretend like I don't care, it kills me to act like it doesn't hurt, truth is I care and it hurts.  But I'm strong, I can't and I won't fall, looks can be deceiving, for my strength is everlasting through God. If I die, I simply go home to God, I fully have faith in that, so move forward in my confident and loyal, because live or die, God has me.

I will always forgive you, I will always love you, and I would still take you if the time comes.  I love you, one day you'll understand how true those words are when they come from me, one you'll understand I truly love you.  One day you'll realize what your throwing away in me, but what you don't realize is my heart is pure and forgiving.  I've been to dark places, I had my times of reflection, and God shut me down and made me think of life in a different light, when God opens your eyes and mind it tends to change how you see life.  You didn't know who I was before I met, so you couldn't grasp how I changed and grew.  You might not understand why think things as I do, but its simple God opened my eyes long ago.  This world is bigger than any of us, God is bigger than any of us, and yes we must find our place and way in His will, but in the end this world will keep turning with or without us.  All we can do is make the most of the life we have, make thos world and people around us better and happier   Thats why I love, thats why I give, thats why I think of others first, thats why I'm selfless.

I am me, I am real, I may not always be right, but I do try.  Even great men have moments of weakness, have doubts.  But great men build legacies not on their own merits or egos, but they build legacies through how great they are through building those around them.  I chose you because I love you, why would settle for anyone else.

I still to this day believe God brought us together for a great reason, and I will always believe that.  What I wouldn't give to somehow let you feel what I feel, know what I know.  So be angry, be upset, be hurt, but know I still love you.  I'm still standing, I'm still moving up, and my arms are always open to you.  You keep trying to break me, or catch me slipping, but one day your realize I'm exactly who I say I am, and that I really do love you.  And when you do realize this, I hope it isn't too late, because I'm here for you.  I may be great, but if the price for your love is myself, so be it, I'll gladly pay it.

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