Realness

With me, you really have to read in between the lines truthfully.  Trust is really big to me, to love you I must trust you, once I lose trust in you I lose that love as well.  Trust is also big to me in those I love in that they trust me to, if I feel you don't trust me then I start doubting you as well.  I work hard to prove I am trustworthy, and I work hard in trusting those I love, it goes both ways and in some ways for better or worse it must be blind until  a valid reason states otherwise.  To love someone is to risk them hurting you, is to put your heart in their hands in trust that they won't hurt you, it's making yourself vulnerable to someone else in trust.  It sounds crazy I know, but real love is just this, real love is in many ways truth faith, faith is believing without seeing.  Anyone can and will believe once they see it, but the truly faithful believe it before they see it.

Many people think silence and being ignored is what drive me crazy, but that isn't true.  I can handle silence, especially when I know someone well enough, and when I know I have done no wrong.  I believe in God, and I trust Him to let me know when something is wrong, when silence is more than silence.  I am not naive, I am very much so cunning, I will play dumb until I have to reveal what I know.  Timing is truly everything.  When I reach out to the woman I love, and she doesn't respond, I'm ok, because I love and trust her, I know in my heart who she is and how she feels and what she is striving for.  I'm on her side, I'm on our side, and honestly I reach out to her not for my gain, but really to inspire her and remind her she is loved always and never has to face life alone unless she chooses to.

The devil has played games with us often, he has allowed rumors to test us, and we have fought many times, but we never allow the devil win, and the reason is we love each other and deep down we understand and trust each like no one else does.  We always find our way back to each other no matter what we go through in life.  There is something very strong between us, I know this, and she is starting to see this too.  Imagine what could happen if we embraced this, it could be life changing.  I have eternal patience for her, and everlasting understanding, I love her.