Sunday, May 1, 2016

Different In All Of Us

I am exactly who I say I am, and I have always stayed true to myself. and this can never disputed.  I have always gone out of my way to be there for you, even at times when I knew it might not be in my best interests.  And it is really simple the reason why, and that reason is and always will be because you matter to me and I love you.  I have made every effort to keep us together, to keep us from growing apart.  I have reached out, I have reminded you I still care, and let you know I miss you, I have fought the distance between us because I love you and you matter to me.

It takes a lot of effort to remember every morning to wish you well and remind you that you are amazing.  It takes patience, thoughtfulness, faith and perseverance.  I'm the one who will never stop loving you no matter what you do or how much you try to push me away, and it really is simple, I love you unconditionally in all ways.  I've seen the mountain tops and I've seen the valleys, and I can honestly neither compares to peace I feel when I'm with you.

I can't wait forever, we both realize that.  And others have shown interest, but I won't just give my heart to anyone.  I actually love myself more than you realize, so much so I value my heart enough to only give to someone deserving, to someone who will love me back as I love them.  The thing is when I find someone to give my heart to, I'm willing to give them all I have and more.  The greatest happiness to me, is the ability to provide for the one I love, to give them all I can, to make their dreams come true, and to bring them happiness, these things are what truly makes me happy.

When I do for myself, I feel shallow, and I might feel happy for a moment, but deep down I feel empty.  Doing for others it was gives me meaning and happiness in life.  And by loving myself I choose to me happy, but to be happy I must do for those I love.  Everyone in this world is different, we all find happiness in different ways.  We can all read a quote a million different ways, just to find the meaning we're searching for.

I am very sincere, and very open.  Have I not proven myself to you time and time again?  Have I not come through for you time and time again?  I've always had your back, and I've let our secrets destroy me at times.  I've even been your shield and fallen on my sword in silence for you.  I'm not really sure what more you want out of me or expect from me.  You tell me to be happy, but then you keep from me the one aspect of life that makes me happy.  There is no secret to life, there is no one right way to be happy, there isn't a magic formula or script, in the end we all our different and we all must find our own way.  This is what God intended, for us to make our own choices, this is free will, God will guide us, but in the end it is our choice, but we must realize with choices comes consequences.  I have always placed my trust in God, and for better or worse I always will and I always will be me.  My words are never empty, but I do need the chance to show you what they can be.

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